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2011-10-19T01:22:00.000+08:00

For a long time, i've always wanted to say this to you. Fuck you. Please don't keep in touch after A Levels. I honestly hope you screw and fuck it up. Really badly. I've been putting up this shit ass facade for so long just so that i can act like i care about your nonsense when i actually don't give a single fuck. No one actually does, and yes, there are people who actually fucking hate you. Woah, surprise there. And you claim we're friends? :D So far from true, bitch. If only they knew. So thanks. For absolutely fucking nothing :)
Gosh, you're right. This feels hella good.

2011-06-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

the beauty of true friendship;
''i'll go wherever you go''
- Hold Still
i don't get sad. i get angry.
when life is unfair, scream at the sky.
hypocrites and backstabbers, every single one of them. mmhmm, i think i'll just stop trusting people.
cause, we would secretly remember that we used to mean something to each other.
secretly.
used to.
i'mgonnafailprelimsandgetexpelled.
i'mgonnafailprelimsandgetexpelled.
i'mgonnafailprelimsandgetexpelled.
^^

2011-04-22T15:47:00.003+08:00

a friend will help you pick up guys, a BEST friend will help you kidnap the guy you're stalking and play guitar for you the entire time
- a random comment from Sugarland - Stuck Like Glue video

just shut up. everything you say is shallow and hurtful.

lian is not equal to bad influence.
chio is not equal to beautiful.

whee. hey, i just realised.
she's a very nice person.
beautiful on the inside and out.
seriously, one of the few perfect people i know.
if not for her vast number of potential suitors, i might just turn lesbian :D
heheh. seriously dudeeee.

please hold on. i know its hard for you, and no one knows what you're going through and they never will. just thought you should know, i'm here whenever you need me. and i won't judge you. or think you're crazy. can cry on my shoulder larh, very clean one kay :)

oh got fucking bronze yo.
not that it bothers me of course.

i'm really truly madly deeply gonna miss guitar :(

2011-04-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

if you were a 38DD, would you honestly go leaping off buildings and fighting crime without a good jogging bra?
texting is so hard. its like every single word is loaded with all this meaning.
only then did i realize how much i freaking miss you.
i didn't get it then, and i still don't get it now, but i am so very glad that it happened :)
HAHAHAHA FUCKING HELL I MISS NGEE ANN AND ALL THE OTHER AWESOME SHIT THAT GOES WITH IT!! CAN I GO BACK AND START OVER PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE :(
I ALMOST CRIED WHEN I WALKED INTO THE YELLOW CLEAN TOILETS :(
i've never said it out loud but i've always been proud wearing my ngee ann uni :D
And hey, the juniors had like a growth spurt or something. But they're still awfully cute! :D
you have a chance, don't screw it up.
but don't screw your life up trying not to screw up that chance.
AND LIFE SUCKS NOW. EVERYTHING IS SCREWED UP BUT THAT'S JUST THE WAY IT GOES RIGHT. I WANT TO START OVER. NOWWWWW.
and the word awesome is very much overused.
a final word - i feeeeeeeeel so old.

2011-03-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

but you'll always be
my hero,
even though
you lost,
your mind
- skylar grey, AHHH SO CHIOO :D

HAHA FINALLYYYY, SOMEONE ELSE HATES YOU. i can see right through you. and you're not the innocent person you claim to be. too bad. i'm the only person who can see you for who you truly are.
true friends are truly hard to find. yeah, i've lost all respect i ever had for you.
its ironic when the only person who seem to give a shit about you is the person you hate the most.
'destiny is for losers. Its just a lame excuse for letting things happen to you instead of making them happen'
haha, this quote is from gossip girl. yes, i freaking read gossip girl.
HAHAHAHAHA YES WE COOL BITCHES YO WE BRING DA HOUSE DOWN LIKE A G6.
OMG HAHAHAHAHA.

how do you do that?
do what?
act like this friendship never happened. i'm not that strong. i can't. tried. failed. just can't.

2011-02-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :)
omg i miss HER so much, i can die :(
if anything happens to her, i'm just gonna get crushed. i swear.
speaking of crush, i have new crush on natalie portman :)
hey, you're hiding something from me. are you not?
my absence not making your heart grow fonder. why?? :( if i commit suicide, its gonna be on your conscience.
self-delusional. schizophrenic. suicidal.

what the fuck. is that what you really think of me? go rot in hell, bitchhh.

2011-01-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

why would you hate someone who makes you so freaking happy? :(

2011-01-07T23:35:00.001+08:00

let's see how far we've come
- matchbox twenty

two years ago, i probably couldn't see myself in yjc. haha, didn't even know it existed. yet, hell to the bloody crap, here i am.
surprisingly, i didn't get retained.
but that's another story.
do i regret coming to yjc?
i have met awesome people and teachers and ohmygod my perfect chiobu :D
gorgeous to the maximum.
haha, 2010 was a sucky year for me. anyway.
soooo, bloody hell, i'm gonna be doing A levels this year. unless i commit suicide or hire an assassin to kill me, of course. or get kicked out of yjc. hohoho.
so, was the happiness worth it?

BA-BA-BA-BASS DOWN LOW.

excuse me, are you suffering from depression?

2010-11-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

eh, then you not angry arh?
'ANGRY? WHERE GOT ANGRY? YOU SEE MY FACE? GOT LOOK ANGRY ANOT?'

hmmm, so yeah, i think my mum's angry.
there is an insanely high chance of getting retained.
sad, i was seriously praying for a miracle. i think it only worked for gp :D
now i'm gonna have to pray for three more.
T3 slide was cooooool. it'll be cooler if the slide was from one end of the terminal all the way to the other end.
i do believe everything happens for a reason.
oh, and happy birthday!! :D

*walks into class*
*face suddenly changed into a look of horror and disbelief*
THIS IS UNACCEPTABLE!

OMG THIS SCENE IS BURNED INTO MY BRAIN. HILARIOUS TO THE FREAKING MAXIMUM. I SWEAR. THAT GIRL IS GONNA KILL ME ONE DAY.
must be a leo thing.

2010-11-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

hot and dangerous
- kesha

HAHAHAHA, THE MOST INSANE RANDOM THING.
just made my day.
THANK YOU, AWESOME PERSON! :D
i definitely did not deserve that.
weeeeird how things are working out huh.
and i think my dream is trying to tell me something. are you?
haha, trust me completely. or don't trust me at all.

#3 - hmmm. you're just so, erm, clean and untouchable. its so hard for us to connect. oh yeah, that's why i started hating you. you were too perfect. haha. but then i learnt that it wasn't your fault at all. lucky bitch you. its quite fun to mess you up though. kay kidding. i'll forever be jealous of you. uhm hmmm. so, stay clean. HAHA.

2010-11-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

haha, my head hurts like shit.
you know like every step you take, there will be this massive earthquake in your head :(
homosexuals are hot. oh wait, i've said this before.
life's too short.
appreciate the people around you before they start changing into complete strangers, leaving you wondering what the hell you did wrong.
hah, they won't tell you anyway.
should i listen to her?
and oh my god, why do i keep dreaming of you?

my tears are turning into time
i've wasted trying to find
a reason for goodbye

i can't live without you
can't breathe without you
i'm dreaming bout you
honestly tell me
that its over
- lindsay lohan

2010-10-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

shit.
i don't need this now.
why now?
i'm sorry, leave me alone.
i need time to forget you.
you make it so hard.

#2 -
chao ji dan. i hate you. so very much. but i gotta give you credit. for making me who i am now. and for getting me through all those times. and for making me feel like shit. and for so many other things that i cannot list down right now. you've moved on. and i'm happy for you. really. its so weird that we used to be so close. we're like total freaking opposites. you lian. i guai. you noisy. i quiet. you smart. i dumb. haha, gooooood times. i'm gonna miss you. like sureeeee. but seriously though, i am truly happy for you. thanks for all the amazing times :)

2010-10-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

fake smiles and twisted lies.
paranormal activity 2 was a bad idea :( HAHAHA.

#1-
isn't it terrifying? to see someone you really care about just break down in front of you. and you're just so helpless. cause you don't know what to do. useless. haha, i'm sorry, its kinda funny. i've always looked up to you as the mature and cool one. oh yeah, and your humour. omfg, can die with you around. and it feels awsome when i actually get to make you laugh. those few random times. and heyyy, i'm not good with these kind of things. i really try, its so hard to figure you out. but i'll be here, always have, always will :) awsumzxzxzx.

you were right.
i was wrong.
i'm sorry.
i miss you.
please, just come back :(

2010-10-26T23:30:00.002+08:00

A: mean right? HAHAHAHA.
B: OMG GOOOD GOOOOD. HAHAHAHA.

awww, now is that epic or epic.
i am terrified of the dark.
and now i'm scared of crying babies, barking dogs and stairs. hah, a whole lot more actually.
we both know how this is gonna end, don't we?
I'll be counting down the days.
let's see how long you can last :)
oh yeah. curse you, PW.

2010-10-22T21:09:00.004+08:00

NANANANANANANANANANANANANA

- My Chemical Romance

I'm sorry for pissing you off.
I'm sorry you can't tell me why.
I'm sorry we're ignoring each other like we're complete strangers.
I'm sorry this is hurting me more than its hurting you.
I'm sorry you've moved on without me.
I'm sorry for ever trusting you in the first place.
I guess i'm just sorry that you've turned into a selfish, back-stabbing, psychotic bitch.

Haha, chill, that's what friends do.
They fight and piss each other off.
But they eventually forgive each other, laugh it off and make up in the end.
If they don't, well, ask them to go fuck themselves
and go be with friends who appreciate you for who you are.
Peace out yo.
-toocooltobenamed

goddamn, you give good advice.
and they're right, fuck you.
admit it, i gave you some of the best moments of your life.
okay, i'm very high now.
i'm gonna go run round pasir ris now screaming
NANANANANANANANANANANA.

2010-10-19T21:34:00.001+08:00

and although there's pain in my chest
i still wish you the best with a
FUCK YOU
oo, oo, ooo
- Cee Lo Green

fine, if that's how you want it.
i hope you're happy.

2010-10-09T00:42:00.001+08:00

When your mood swings like a pendulum.
And i hate who i've become. Can i change back? No i can't :(
That's it. I give up.
I'm not gonna bother trying anymore. And don't worry, this will be the last time i'm ever gonna cry over you.
Why am i even crying?
Maybe its cause i know, this time, i can't save it anymore.
Maybe i'm sick of waiting.
Maybe i'm just too tired of trying again and again. And always failing.
But if this is how you want it, then there's nothing else i can do.
I must say though. Thanks for all the good times.
When we laughed together at everything and anything.
When we were honest with each other. When you trusted me enough to open up to me.
When you actually gave a damn.
Its all gone now. Just cause of.
It's sad.
And we both know, things will never go back to how we were. And i'm sorry but i won't be here when you come back.
So thanks.
For being a part of my life.
For everything.

This is either gonna bring us closer or push us further away.
Reciprocate my love, damn you.
Oh god, tell me.
How the hell do i save this?

2010-09-26T22:20:00.003+08:00

STAR POWER, BITCHES
- Resident Evil: Afterlife

The movie is AWESOME.
OMG ALICE IS BEYOND COOOOL.
AND WTF GOT SOME GIGANTIC UNDEAD THINGY WITH THIS GIGANTIC HAMMER.
HE WAS TAKING A STROLL AND DECIDED TO JUST DESTROY THE REST OF THE SURVIVORS.
Scary :( okay nevermind, i didn't play the game, i don't know anything.
I think the ending is hilarious.
Oh and a guy from LP is in Saw 3D. WOOAH. Awesome not.
And i still hate you. Don't worry, you can't tell :)
HAHAHAHA, well, that was interesting.
Freaking unexpected please.

Oh my god. What are you doing?
After all these time. I trusted you.
I guess it never was enough.
It just shows.
How far you'd go for me.
It hurts. I would've gone so much more further for you.
So. Much. More.
How did we get here? :(
I'd rather pretend than forget.
I'm so sick of this.
And suddenly i'm regretting my decision.
It's all thanks to you.
Congratulations.

2010-09-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
TINY PEOPLE WERE IN THE HOUSE.
AND THEY STARTED JUMPING LIKE.
TINY. MINI. HOPPING. RABBITS.
OMG I'M GONNA DIEEEEEEE.
TOO MUCH CUTENESSSSSSSS.
AND THEY KEEEP ON SQUEALING.
EVERYTIME I TRY TO CARRY. GRRRRRR.
OMG GOT ONE FREAKING ADORABLE GUY.
HE SAW A MIRROR AND STOPPED AND STARED AT HIMSELF.
AND LAUGHED OMG HE LAUGHEDD.
HAIR SO SPIKYYYYYY. EYES SO SHINYYYYY.
SO PERFECTTTTT. AHHHHH.
I SWEAR I WAS IN HEAVEN FOR A FEW MINUTES. HMMMMM.

okay, end of happy post.
i screwed up GP badlyyyy.
compo was out of point.
left vocab questions blank.
AQ wasn't done.
compre questions were untouched.
8 + 5 + 2 + 3 + 2 holy freak, 20 marks.
and chem consultation.
'are you trying to drop chem? if you are, then its okay lorh' whattheheck.
there really is no point in me being here.
and what happened today.
just made me more sure.
that it was all a mistake from day 1.
and what you said.
kept replaying in my head.
the hurt. cannot be expressed.
oh, the betrayal.
i should have never opened up to you.
have a nice life, i will miss you :)

no, i'm not saying i'm sorry.
one day, maybe we'll meet again :)

2010-09-06T21:01:00.002+08:00

there must be a reason why you can't stop looking at me -
ermm

haha. i think that line is hilarious.
i am so sorry. but.
what the fuck, i hate attention seeking bitches.
oooh, so i've been thinking.
but i think its kinda wrong. not to mention selfish.
but life would be so much easier to handle.
its like a whole new beginning righttt.
exactly what i need. right. now.
why are you so nice anyway?
so.what.now.

2010-08-30T23:33:00.006+08:00

explain to me
this conspiracy against me
- Paramore

i'm sorry for being a horrible person.
i'm just not good with these kinda things.
you should never have trusted me in the first place.
i'm sorry for being a dumb ass and making you cry.
it wasn't on purpose. its just one of those stupid things i love doing to people i really care about.
i'm sorry that i don't get you. you just seem way more comfortable with them.
i can't even make you smile anymore :(
it sucks to not be appreciated. do you know how much it sucks? do you??
and thank you. so freaking much.
that's all i really needed to hear :)

2010-08-27T00:07:00.003+08:00

i'ma get your heart racing
in my skin tight jeans
be your teenage dream tonight
- Katy Perry
hello good people who bother to read my blog. 
it is now the holy fasting month.
i shall refrain from saying vulgarities and profanities.
oh yeah, i had the most weirdest dream ever.
involves the females of 114.
we were in the library and everybody was crying except for me.
HAHAHA, must be a sign.
anyway, 20 days to promos people.
JIA YOUUUU. all of you must get promoted. MUST.
and i'm really pissed of with some people. no specific reason. 
but i don't think its that hard to know if someone's pissed with you right?
FAREWELL MS JOYCE YEEEEE. YOU WILL BE MISSED DEARLY :)
its the quiet ones that you gotta look out for.
and i just realised, he looks like brendon urie with glassess off :D 
HAHAHAHA TOO. SHUAI. CANNOT. COME. ANY. CLOSER.
where is the trust :(
OH YEAH STEP UP 3 WITH YJ!! :) WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE. TO THE MAXZXZXZXZXZXZXZX.
HOT LEAD GUY. HOT MOVES. GO WATCH GO WATCH GO WATCH :D

2010-08-13T22:24:00.002+08:00

1-
hmmmm no one is out of anyone's league lol. seriously, if its meant to be, its meant to be
if its fate then, just go with it? hahaha. just go with the flow
no need to think about "Oh he's too hot for me, Oh he's too good to be true, blahblah"
dont think about the negative things about yourself
must have good self-esteem
and confidence
hey if he's not meant for you then, there's still other guys right
things like this are just fate

2-
HAHHHA omg why?? lol i saw like fat girls with like hot guys together as couples, and i was like "wth? the guys deserves someone pretty and slim and hot". but then i think again, isnt it good? i mean at least the guy isnt shallow or anything, he's looking beyond the face and body and really is liking the girl for who she is truely
sooo kudos to them
hahahha
well,
this just tells us that,
who cares if you yourself think tt you are out of his league
if someone really likes you
he should like you for who you are
not just your image and all
think positive
dont underestimate yourself
or whatever its called
hahahha

3-
HAHAHAHAH flying? hmmmm.. HAHHA OKAY YOU TOO OKAY, PRINCE CHARMING WILL COME ON HIS WHITE HORSE ONE DAY!! hahahha, i know ive been telling myself this every single time but, SERIOUSLY I WANNA FUCKING SLIM DOWN, SOO TT ILL LOOK BETTER AND I CAN GO TELL THE GUYS WHO DONT NOTICE ME BEFORE AND TELL THEM TO GO FCK THEMSELVES HAHAH

this is just a random convo. not my words siolzxzxz. haha but funny right? no? okay nevermind.
anyway, i've been thinking alot these past few days.
about random stuff. and she's right, i have to stop being pissed with the other her just because.
why make it so easy for me to hate you?
but it doesn't matter right? cause you can't even tell if i do hate you.

yeah anyway
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZRA!! =) STAY AWESOMEEEE!
AND HAPPY BELATED YU FEN!! =D STAY SARCASTIC!

2010-08-11T02:40:00.001+08:00

i just realised i've been hating the wrong person all along. which is kinda stupid.
SO BLOODY STUPID.
i will update properly. when i have something to update about.
kay? kay awesome.

try to forget love cause love's forgotten me

2010-07-19T22:47:00.003+08:00

look into your eyes, imagine life without ya
and the love kickstarts again

- example

haha, the video is awesome. the girl's shoes cool or what.
eclipse, despicable me and inception.
eclipse was okay, i guess. didn't even read the book.
DESPICABLE ME WAS AWESOME TO THE MAX SIOLS. yellow minions so adorable.
AND THEY CAN GLOW IN THE DARK HAHAHA.
inception was confusing but interesting. can someone watch the ending and explain it to me? thanks.
OKAY BLOCK TESTS.
i want my GP paper! 
erm failed all but maths. and my highest grade is an E.
i know, i know, you told me so. but its been half a year already. zhen me ban?
shit, late again today. stupid motherfather.
i. can. not. wait. to. leave.
PURPLEE EYEZZZ. chio or what sia.
oh yeah, A hates B. B hates A.
why does this sound familiar? haha.
hey you, so what do i do? advice me.
i'm a lousy person. and an even lousier friend.
so i've decided to stop caring altogether.
trust me, it's better this way.
omg its so hard to hang out with your friends when they're all so chio.
HAHAHA SIA LARH, TALKING ABOUT YOU LARH SIOLS :D
WHY THE HELL IS HE SO BLIND ANYWAY???
i mean, god, you're standing right in front of him.

read bee-tween the lines,
cause we both know,
you're better off without me.

2010-07-05T21:59:00.002+08:00

you build me up just to break me down
you're being loud without a sound
you paste me in just to cut me out
hello fascination

- breathe carolina

cause it really kills me to know that you don't trust me enough. really =(
PMS is a legal reason for murder. awesome or what man.
i've been pms-ing alot lately. and i don't know why. or maybe i do.
AND HEY I'M BLOGGING WHOO.
alright then. so. block tests.
i definitely screwed up bio. and chem. and maths. and econs. and gp.
yeah, fine, i screwed up everything.
HAHA SHIT WHAT IF I DON'T GET PROMOTED.
okay well, life sucks now. more than ever.
and its not just cause of the block tests.
okay out of things to blog. here.
OH YEAH PIXIE LOTT HOT OR WHAT SIOLS. sia larh.
there's just something about blondes that are just so attractive. to me anyway.

try reading between these lines, bitch.

2010-05-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

since i'm totally uncontactable,

i think i should at least blog.

so people will know i'm not dead.

HAHA, hello, currently dying in yjc.

i mean what kind of ulu jc ends so late?? OMG.

i love my class. but i hate some of them too. no i'm kidding, i will be nice and love them all.

i love my cca except the part where i have to carry an annoyingly heavy guitar case everywhere i go.

i love taking the bus to school except fot the part where i have to squeeze in through the bus doors just so i won't be late for school.

and i absolutely loveeeeee staring at the good looking people here =D

and yeah, i really really adore 114 =D

and this is a draft from months ago.

its actually stupid, i don't remember typing this crap.

so. really. don't. read. it.

and oh my freaking god do i miss ngee ann =(

i desperately need money. desperately.

because when it comes right down to it
you never do care about me
and when you act like you do care, you have some kind of hidden motive
and i end up being used
over and over again
i don't even know why i let you
maybe its cause i don't care if you use me
or ignore me or just throw me aside whenever you don't need me
cause when we do get together, its like the world stops moving

L: hanis, stop, stop. you're starting to sound cheesy, okay? let's replay that

right, remind me why i'm doing this again?

N: beeeecauseee, its the only way he'll actually notice you. okay 3, 2 and go.

i feel really dumb now. thanks to L and N. HAHAHAHAHA.
ahh i love you people.

2010-05-03T12:29:00.002+08:00

throw up your arms into the sky,
you and I

happy birthday to you! =)
okay then, i don't really like my life right now.
i kind of regret not going to the arts stream. 
they end so early. and arts people are super high people.
and i don't like my subjects. fine maybe except maths. haha.
HAHA I DON'T THINK ANYONE READS MY BLOG ANYMORE. okay sorry that was random.
oh yjc is kinda like ngee ann. loads of yishun sec or town ppl are here. that sucks.
hey hey hey, the jc2 chio bu talked to me. haha. she sounds nice in person. and she lives in PASIR RIS.
everyone's really hating PI.
and a random convo to end.
ooo i like the new 21 guns song.

me: hey do you know when eclipse is coming out?
her: erm, i think maybe a few hundred years.
me and the other her: OMG WHAT? HAHAHAH.

what the hell happened to you?
what, me? 
i didn't change. 
you did.

just give up the fight.

2010-04-20T22:29:00.003+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky look like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now

- Airplanes

whoo hoo. haha, this song is good.
and i have this insane temptation to transfer to poly.
people make it sound so fun man.
and i think i screwed up my PI.
oh yeah, YJC is gonna suspend me. i think.
ooo. hot MJC guy was in the bus.

omg, she freaking lied straight to my face.

2010-04-05T23:22:00.004+08:00

this heart
it beats
beats for only you
- Paramore

wow, today was weird.
anyway last night, i went to somewhere.
and apparently, she saw me.
i know who she is but i'm pretty sure she doesn't know me.
so it was weird to just go up to her and say hi.
eh, she started it. she saw me and erm i think she smiled.
weird is cause i've seen her many times and mostly just ignored her.
fine, i don't think she saw me.
anyway, i just went up to her and we talked. she talked to me. wooooah.
she seems really nice and friendly in person. hmmm.
its weird cause i've never talked to her.
and i just realised we were in the same primary school. HAHAH. wait why is that funny.
SCHOOL IS REALLY STARTING TO SUCK.
but its okay, i'm surviving.
and apparently, that HOT FEMALE GUITARIST in my dp, is Azra/YuJun.

its happening again.
i cant do anything to stop it.
i lost her.
omg yeah, i'm talking about you :(

oh yeah, i privated my blog cause i screwed up my template and i had no time to fix it.
nah kidding, just wanna piss you off. HAHAHAH. kidding siolz.

2010-03-21T23:53:00.003+08:00

since i'm totally uncontactable,

i think i should at least blog.

so people will know i'm not dead.

HAHA, hello, currently dying in yjc.

i mean what kind of ulu jc ends so late?? OMG.

i love my class. but i hate some of them too. no i'm kidding, i will be nice and love them all.

i love my cca except the part where i have to carry an annoyingly heavy guitar case everywhere i go.

i love taking the bus to school except fot the part where i have to squeeze in through the bus doors just so i won't be late for school.

and i absolutely loveeeeee staring at the good looking people here =D

and yeah, i really really adore 114 =D

and this is a draft from months ago.

its actually stupid, i don't remember typing this crap.

so. really. don't. read. it.

and oh my freaking god do i miss ngee ann =(

i desperately need money. desperately.

2010-03-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

never let you fall apart,
together we'll dance in the dark.

- dance in the dark

according to the website, its the highest rated song.
but i like so happy i could die THE BEST.
and i'm not sure if what i did was right.
or wrong. or worth it. or plain stupid.
but shit, it happened already right?
she said its not worth it and i never should have gone.
oh wellll.
JC1 Bintan Camp was da bomb man. 
no, actually it was horrible. but memorable in most ways.
WE SURVIVED A TSUNAMI. 
ITS A FREAKING TSUNAMI PEOPLE.
fine, i exaggerated. it was just a storm with a lot of rain.
FREAKING ALOT.
i'm not gonna blog about it, sorry.
oh yeah, there was one time.

me - eh the food good anot?
alice - i'm not hungry anymore.
me - haha, so is it good anot?
alice - why don't you try it?

the convo went something like this. haha.
so anyway, i did try it. 
a few mouthfuls. i thought it was sour. but i thought it was just a bintan thing.

some female adult - people people, stop eating, the food has gone bad. STOP EATING.

HAHAHA i'm sorry, its just so funny.
some people were like halfway through. 
some people larh horh. haha.
flying fox was awesome. it ended in 5 seconds or something.
but the new one will be from one island to the other. cool right!!
so in a nutshell, camp was okay.
people like alice and her and her. fine almost all the girls.
were coooool people. like me arh :D

AND HAS ANYONE SEEN TELEPHONE MV. 
OMG IT SHOULD BE FREAKING NC 16 AT LEAST.
IT SHOCKED EVEN ME. SO GAGA MAN.
GO CHECK IT OUT PEOPLE.
and i'm so gonna catch paramore the next time they come, i swear.

i thought you of all people, would understand.
i guess i'm wrong, again.
not the first time.

2010-03-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

you totally read my dead blog, hahahah, omg.

OMG PARAMORE CONCERT TOMORROW WHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

Lily Allen ( The Fear )

lily allen's songs are fun and interesting :D
I HATE PW.
i should really start thinking about changing my password. hmmm.

2010-03-01T21:57:00.002+08:00

kiss me all night,
don't ever let me go

seriously, what's your problem.
maybe jc was a bad idea after all.
at least
things are looking up, oh finally :D
no really, i think my job pays well. its amazing that i survived this far though.
there's one thing i have that you don't, bitch.

okay okay, i miss secondary school and all the people in it.
and omg late report timings.
its annoying to wake up so early to go to an ulu school when there's one right smack in front of you.
oh, the regret.
omg the moment is nearing, what if she hates me now?
oh yeah titanic. omg it was funny.
the part where jack and shit i forgot the girl's name, went to the front of the ship and stood there reminded me of prom.
good times. hanis times.
currently addicted to something. i'm so sick.
and i do realise that my posts are becoming crappier than ever :)

i'm better off without you anyway.

2010-02-23T23:59:00.006+08:00

hear me when I say, when I say, I believe

I told you.
haha you're the only so far who hasn't violently disapprove.
cool huh.
so jc life is rigorous. its been what, 6 days, and we're already overwhelmed with projects.
maybe i should drop out and go to an ite :D
haha no maybe later. i came to yjc for one reason. can't give up yet.
my cca is awesome. but now the badminton teacher wants to talk to me.
loser, i went for try outs and he rejected me and now he's calling me back.
bloody bbq chicken guy didn't call me =(
haha, this is all yjc's fault for ending school insanely late.
OH YEAH THERE'S THIS GIRL.
i swear, chio-er then fountain.
i know right, that's practically impossible but its true.
she's just not tall. the rest is perfect :)
AND SHIT I HATE GP AND PW

for you, i will:
shit, i think you're homo
PARAMORE! - Hanis:
HAHAHAH JUST CAUSE I STARE AT GIRLS DOESNT MEAN I'M A LES OMG
WAIT THAT DOES SOUND A LITTLE WRONG. HMMMMM
for you, i will:
oh, i 4got that little detail. nice, you're bisexual (:
PARAMORE! - Hanis:
HAHAHAHAHAHA SHUT THE HELL UP

how do you compete with perfection?

2010-02-16T00:28:00.005+08:00

full of promise, full of hope, ignorant to reality.

i just don't show that i care cause its gonna hurt if your reaction turns out to be the one i wasn't hoping for.
i really do care, really.
i haven't changed that much anyway.
one of the reasons i hate change.
but i guess you're one of the best things that's ever happened.
so thanks, for the memories.
yeah, i know i still suck with words.

happy belated valentine's day :)

i'm just worried that people will forget me when i'm really gone.

2010-02-07T22:16:00.014+08:00

the strength to continue laughing.

haha, soooo... how's life without me?
hmm oh real good. didn't even realise you were gone. heh ^^

okay so orientation is a little overstretched.
not that i mind. there's a super cute OGL in my house =D
and there's a 5-pointer in my OG. she's crazy.
oh there's this indian girl who took hml and chinese as her third language in secondary school. omg wow.
last day of so called orientation was AWESOMEEE.
there was a band and beatboxer or something and a bbq.
people from the north get high easily. i think they ended at 12 or something. crazy people.
but the sight of everybody jumping was so cooool.
me is good girl so i left early. okay, i just didnt want to miss my last bus.
oh wait, there's still no lectures or whatever tomorrow.
and have i mentioned, my uniform apparently looks like an ite uniform. nice right.
okay, i'm way too lazy to blog about other days of orientation. so this ends here
MASS DANCE IS NICEEE!!! no, just the aiiiiaaiiiiaiiiiieeeeee part actually :D
i think the smiley looks more sincere with miniature eyes.
AND HAVE YOU HEARD AVRIL LAVIGNE'S NEW SONG??? :O
i'm listening to the most coolest mashup thing ever. HAHAHA. *stuck on repeat*

me : haha, hey this might be the last time we actually get to hang out together. HAHAHA.
her : *stops walking and gave me THAT look*
she actually believed me :(

i think she's jealous that i actually got in. haha.
no no, maybe she's just concerned.
maybe. just maybe.

2010-01-21T18:52:00.005+08:00

I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes

- Owl City

heyyyy avatar was way better than expected! awesome movie =D
okay, let's talk about results.
i just found out that i'm not eligible for most of the courses that i chose.
how stupid is that. hahaha. so its kinda guaranteed that i'm going to yjc! hurray!
damn, i was looking forward to doing that vet course.
sucker, practically all primary school mates are going to a jc.

hahahahaha, i just told her something.
shit maybe i shouldn't have done that.
she doesn't trust me so why should i trust her huh.

oh yeah, saw this at a random website -
Each successful hired applicants can earn at least S$300 hourly rate.
its a three digit.
omg right. can get my father's pay in like 4 hours.
HAHAHAHAHAH.

cause i know that you know that everything's gonna change.

don't let this end here.

2010-01-18T22:39:00.006+08:00

ga ga oooh la la

- Lady GaGa

my favourite part of the song. shut up, you know its catchy =D
DOES AVRIL LAVIGNE LOOK AWESOME HERE OR WHAT MAN.
FREAAKING HOT. WHOOO.
New York, I Love You was quite interesting.
and kinda confusing, but i still love it!
i shall blog about o levels some other day.
oh yeah, this was a conversation that took place when i was in the bus, depressing over my results.
okay, i can't really remember, pretty vague.

Cikgu Hayati: Hello? Hanis? Macamane results? okay tak?
Me: hello, boleh larh, got 20.
Her: ah, boleh pegi jc tu kan? at least you tried your best larh.
Me: hmmm
Her: anyway, your hml berapa?
Me: HAHAHA A2 seh!!! ( i was seriously laughing, but not so loud, duh, this is just for dramatisation)
Her: hahaha, yarh. you know you were the only one who got distinction.
Me : ... HUH SERIOUS KE PE? ASYRAF LEH? ( okay from here onwards, i started screaming )
Her : hahahahahaha. dia dapat B3, tak salah aku. the rest dia dapat distinction kan. only hml dia tak dapat.
Me : BETUL CIKGU?? SERIOUS?? NO WAY SEH!!
Her: Hahahahahahahaha!

the conversation continued with me continuously screaming at her like that. she kept on laughing,
haha, anyway, she just wanted to tell me about my wonderful achievement. niceeeee cikgu =)
juniors told me she was proud of me. awww, well she should be! from a C6 to an A2 baybeh! WHOO HOO!
i usually hate calls but that one really made me happpieeee =)
HAHAHAHA THE REST OF MY RESULTS SUCK ANYWAY SO WHATEVER.
will blog about it another day.
i wanna catch it's complicated! who's with me? =D

2009-09-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

girl: so tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love? 
boy: all the time
both: all the time 

- Owl City

omg look at this beautfiul song.
anyway,
prelims is horrible. 20 days.
omg, i just realised how flawless she is.
sounds a bit wrong.
she's perfect in every way. sounds better.
i don't know why she keeps dissing herself.
i would never dare to do that.
probably just run somewhere. far far away.
seeee, i told you she hates me.
i'm never good with these kinda things. too personal. 

she's on the verge of a nervous breakdown.
and i'm just standing by the sidelines watching her fall apart.

2009-08-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

omg
this
song.

wow, you're good, it did made me cry.

2009-08-15T00:06:00.004+08:00

kamu
tak tahu
rasanya
hatiku
saat ber
hadapan
kamu -
Kotak

wow, a malay song.
2 more months to o levels. very screwed.
i'm currently very pissed with someone
but she probably doesn't know since i'm so damn good at lying.
school's been cramped with completing the bio syllabus.
on a happier note, i think the guy's kinda cute. plus, he's a regular! whoo.
and i have no idea why the girl keep on staring at me. want fight arh.
i am head over hells in love with nina now.
there was something i wanted to blog about but i'll put it up later.
she's freaking disfigured and she thought she couldn't have gotten any uglier.
happy birthday to bro and sis and the other sis. blah. i'm such a nice sister.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZRA! =D

2009-07-25T00:38:00.001+08:00

are you even listening when I talk to you
do you even care what I'm going through
your eyes stare and they're staring right through me
you're right there but its like you never knew me

do you even know how much it hurt
that you gave up on me to be with her

revenge is sweeter than you ever were

- The Veronicas

90 plus more days.

2009-07-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken hearted, in a corner crying?
Pardon me if I don't show it
-Kristinia DeBarge

goodbye-
current addictive song.
i'm very lazy so this is gonna be random and short.
drag me to hell was funny. not scary.
we did something long long ago and i'm missing that 'whoo' feeling =(
some people are just so dao after the holidays.
camp phoenix was surprisingly bearable.
i'm done missing micheal jackson.
i still miss her blog.
he's back to blogging.
cube is a scary crappy movie.
i expected her taste to be better actually.
prom is 5 days after the o level.
how convenient.
camp phoenix isn't over!
i want to watch autopsy.
i honestly think i can't get to a jc.
my tagbox is screwed.
not done with that crappy english article.
hesaidonlyyou.
bye.

It's amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile
-Demi Lovato

2009-05-18T11:17:00.007+08:00

there's
no
more
you
and
i

- Hey Monday

there's finally internet in this low leveled house.
moving from a 17th floor to a 6th floor is just weird. everything seems shorter.
the com is outside now. one of the reasons i don't go online at night.
this is slow but yay exams are over.
but its just mid years right so i don't know why people are so happy.
and thank god its only mid years, i didnt study hard at all.
oh yeah MJC is in the semi finals.
the gay is in the american idol finals. what is happening to america?
vote for the cute guy!
the uninvited.
watched with yaxun.
the audience was terrible.
yaxun kept on screaming.
and there was this irritating group of malays in front of us. nice larh.
so the movie was about this crazy girl.
its scary how far your imagination can take you.
oh thanks to this movie, i have developed a phobia of overflowing and tied up garbage bags.
i should really watch more horror movies with yaxun.

oh yeah this came very late. was suppose to blog about this months before but forgot.
so in an attempt to lengthen this short post, i shall post this crap here.
in other words, skip this.
yaxun wanted me to blog about the time i nearly died.
we were waiting under this tree near the zebra crossing. it was hot okay.
so the light was green. i walked quickly across the zebra crossing to the junction when i heard this weird screaming behind me.
i turned and this dumbass blind ccb MCDONALDS motorcycle zoomed inches past me.
and i was like wah lucky sia.
apparently, yaxun got traumatised.
the end.

this fantasy of you and me

2009-04-10T22:35:00.002+08:00

eh the pic damn cool rite ---->>>
haha, i was searching for pictures of the so-goddamn-chio cassadee, and this pic came up.
okay aniwae, the volleyball thing.
was so cool.
the volleyballers were so damn tall with their arms of steel.
i mean how the hell the ball can fly so far sia.
second in nationals! yay, ngee ann =D
male volleyballers are gay
~~we beat cedar rite? or cedar no volleyball isit?~~
sports day.
it rained.
yu chiu is terrified of lightning.
temasekians/temasekers rule man.
seoul garden.
i didnt know u can take ur own food.
and it looks so gross when its raw, like pork sia, how the hell was i suppose to choose.
but the cooking thing was fun.
sorry, first timer, dun laugh.
confessions of a shopaholic is so damn hilarious!
omg the girl is so funny.
go catch it.
CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC =D
THANK YOU TO YOU AND YOU AND YOU! =D

minor matters. just ignore it. and it'll go away.
or u can just be a bitch and do it your way.

2009-02-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

I wanna kiss you
But if I do then I might miss you, babe
It's complicated and stupid
Got my ass squeezed by sexy cupid
Guess he wants to play, wants to play
A love game, a love game

Hold me and love me
Just want touch you for a minute
Maybe three seconds is enough
For my heart to quit it

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

I'm on a mission 
And it involves some heavy touching, yeah
You've indicated you're interest
I'm educated in sex, yes
Now I want it bad, want it bad
A love game, a love game

Hold me and love me
Just want touch you for a minute
Maybe three seconds is enough
For my heart to quit it

Let's have some fun, this beat is sick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick
Don't think too much just bust that kick
I wanna take a ride on your disco stick

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

I can see you staring there from across the block
With a smile on your mouth and your hand on your (huh!)
The story of us, it always starts the same
With a boy and a girl and a (huh!) and a game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

Let's play a love game
Play a love game
Do you want love?
Or you want fame?
Are you in the game?
Dans, the love game

omg i love lady gaga =D
her songs are so R21 yet so addictive.
karmaine randomly told me my pm is perverted. haha!
i should start studying for maths tests. 
i know im gonna fail both amaths and emaths cos i had no idea waddehell i wrote.
hml test was not bad larh horh. 
i kinda studied malay metaphors for nothing =(
and we saw a brown cow on the way back to school. 
a brown cow.
i didnt know they existed in singapore. amazing.
the ting tings sang wonderfully nice when they're live.
and i think the female is hot.
and megan didnt get in!! omg bitches. 
she reminds me so much of avril lavigne and FOUNTAIN.
oh im shorter then fountain, how depressing, i didnt really know.
too bad shes ***** =(
5 points is impossibile for me yet so easy for you.
no guy is worth ur tears  =D

you would be perfect if you had actually joined a sports cca =(
then i'd be so jealous, i would kill myself.

2009-02-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

he pulled me in
i was disgusted with myself

i just realised that o levels is seriously very near.
and im failing in everything so far.
everything.
how scary.
oh im going on a robbing spree soon.
cos some bitch ask me to have stashes of money on wednesday.
aniwae, i think i should start taking tuition for all subjects really really soon.
ohyeah there was something i wanted to blog about but it seems to have slipped my mind right now. so my random post shall end here.
oh randomly, again, i think that u should start thinking about baby joe so we can actually discuss and talk more about parkway parade since you're such a prodigy, yes? HAHAHAH
and i swear, yaxun's mother is hilarious.

how can you let something so petty end years of friendship?

2009-02-10T21:46:00.001+08:00

tell me do you feel the way I feel,
cause nothing else is real

oh its february.
i've actually wanted to blog about bride wars for a long time but i keep forgetting.
yeah anyway, its a goddamn nice movie!!
i didnt know kate hudson was so funny and her wedding dress damn gorgeous can.
i dont mind watching again!
erm tests. so far i've failed all. okay nearly all. 
recent one was emaths test. i failed it terribly.
nevermind larh horh, i beat the genius amira by one mark! =D
and some ah lian in my class is eyeing some random NOT SHUAI guy.
i think her taste in guys has dropped drastically ever since that time.
anyway, i'm glad she finally made up even though she keeps denying it.
oh yeah nothing else happened.
randomly, my youngest sister told me that i **** * ********** *** =(
i didnt know it was so obvious sia. how depressing =(

i had no idea ***** is a good thing. weird.

2009-01-29T19:59:00.002+08:00

You could have knocked me out with a feather
I know you've heard this all before but we're just hell's neighbors
Why why why won't the world revolve around me?
In my dreams trees grow all over the streets

I don't know much about classic cars
But I've got a lot of friends stuck on classic coke
Down, set, one, hut, hut, hike
Media blitz

Let's hear it for America's sweethearts
But I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins
Let's hear it for America's sweethearts
But I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins

You can bow and pretend
Like you don't don't know you're a legend
Time time time hasn't told anyone else yet
(Sorry I just) let my love loose again

I don't know much about classic cars
But I've got a lot of friends stuck on classic coke
Down, set, one, hut, hut, hike
Media blitz

Let's hear it for America's sweethearts
But I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins
Let's hear it for America's sweethearts
But I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins

You could have knocked me out with a feather
I know you've heard this all before

Let's hear it for America's sweethearts
But I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins
Let's hear it for America's sweethearts
But I must confess
I'm in love with my own sins

Let's hear it for
Let's hear it
Let's hear it for
Let's...
Sweethearts

my piercing kinda painful arh. dunno which bitch ask me to do sia. haha.
my mom says i can do whatever i want after o levels, including unmuslim stuff which im not really allowed to say. wahahah.
and im failing in all my subjects teribbly, omg
and im losing all interest in blogging.
and something weird happened yesterdae the yesterdae.

i don't even know who you are anymore

2009-01-27T23:11:00.004+08:00

I wanna be rich
And I want lots of money
I don't care about clever
I don't care about funny

I want loads of clothes
And fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they're trying to find them

And I'll take my clothes off
And it will be shameless
'Cause everyone knows that's how you get famous
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah, I'm onto a winner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and cussing each other
But that doesn't matter 'cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And it's not my fault, it's how I'm programmed to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah, we're on to the winner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
'Cause I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Yeah I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner

I don't know what's right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear
'Cause I'm being taken over by the fear

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! =D
please.let.me.pass.amaths.

2009-01-17T20:56:00.004+08:00

and after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart

bitchy indeed. this is gonna be a random post.
i got between dropping hml and getting the grade i was dying for. sad sia. i would kill myself if i got like a 74. but i think i got a 70, im not that lucky. my sister bad sia, she laugh at me. but she also cheered me up by saying that there was this person who got A2 for malay and A1 for the rest of the subjects including hml. yes, it totally cheered me up.
okay update. the only thing i can remember now is ole. which was interestingly fun and crappy.
hope whatever happened will not affect anything.
i can finally take 5 as my jersey number! jingwen has stolen it from me all these years =( haha
and i owe sherina like 20 bucks plus. i had no idea she took hml during pri school! i mean if she did, she should have taken hml during sec sch also rite!! her malay is pro-er then me, manzxz!! and she sux, she deleted her blog.
okay im done updating, seriously run out of ideas alr.
american idol is so funny.
'next time, come naked'
but yarh lorh, i don't think she's that hot. and no, i'm not blind.
amaths test is next week. lets hope i pass miraculously. i dun plan to study like hell for it.
kimberly is hot shit =D
getting pure distinctions for all subjects is pure insanity.
make me angry, and my english vocabulary will suddenly become super pro. haha!
a second chance?

yes, falling in love with your best friend's ex is so wrong, its sinful.

2008-12-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

don't waste your time on me you're already
the voice inside my head
I MISS YOU 

okay okay i shall blog.
like finally rite? =D
haha okay sorry.
erm lets start with korea trip. HAHA.
i know its so long ago, i'm just trying to make this post as long as i can.
so bear with the crap that im gonna type.
oh I FINALLY GET TO GO ON A PLANE!!! wheee =D
but like no difference lorh when u fly.
oh i got window seat!! =D HAHA, god is fair.
oh oh oh the clouds look like white cotton candy when ur in a plane sia!!
SO COOOOOOOL!!
and airplane food is weird.. or maybe im just weird.
oh airplane toilet is so cool. its like so small, yet so nice.
angus thongs and perfect snogging is funny.
but i dun think the guy hot leh.
oh right, then we landed in korea. then we stepped out of the airport.
THEN THIS STRONG FREEZING WIND CAME OUT OF NOWHERE.
everybody was rushing to get their jackets and coats, funny sia.
then we went to this hotel.
its scary..
or maybe i watch way too many scary shows alr.
yeah, aniwae koreans are DIRTY-MINDED people.
there was porn in like all of the channels.
okay, i exaggerated a little bit.
but the porn they show is like seriously porn lorh. R21 leh.
okay fast forward, we went to IIHS.
the mc said farris is handsome. haha.
then oh the food there was.. erm interesting.
and the dorms were cool.
AND THE GUY SINGER IS HOT. the only hot guy lorh.
see larh, i forgot wad to type.
OH YEAH, i dunno why they say the mc is shuai. he's not lorh.
furthermore, he's GAYYYYYY!!!
aniwae before we went back, we stayed at the same hotel again.
AND WADDEF*** me and yaxun were the only ones on one level.
the rest were on another level. like waddefcuk rite???
yeah so anyway, i slept there ALONE for some time
cos yaxun wanted to do stuff.
i kept thinking
i kept thinking the lights would suddenly go out.
i kept thinking of crawling long haired zombies.
i kept thinking they would crawl from underneath the beds.
then i saw womanizer on tv.
britney spears.
then somehow i slept.
ok in the end, i overslept and made yaxun late. dui bu qi =(
then we went to many media places.
and we took a plane again!! yay!
but i didnt get window seat. NOOOOOOOO!!! life is unfair.
yeah aniwae mdm riza sent me home. she's so weird. in a nice way.

okay this is part 1 of my post. part 2 will come soon, i promise!! =D
TWILIGHT IS COMING SOOOOON!
OH YEAH UGLY BETTY ENDED LAST NITE. NOOOOO!!!
SOMEONE TELL ME, DID SHE WENT WITH GIO OR HENRY??
GIO OR HENRY????

hello there, the angel from my nightmare

2008-11-30T23:53:00.003+08:00

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
Cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down 
We almost never speak
I don’t feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me
Cause one second it was perfect, now you’re halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause i was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure
So here’s to everything coming down to nothing
Here’s to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going?
Thought I knew for a minute, but i don’t anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn’t mean it baby
I don’t think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything?
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything?

Cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn’t called
And then you feel so low you can’t feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always
And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you’re here and it rains when you’re gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always
Didn’t mean it baby
You said forever and always yeah

this song is stuck in my head.
i swear, im gonna buy Fearless.
korea was nice.
camp was horrible.
unfortunately, i dun feel like blogging now.
but i promise i'll blog a really nice and long one for people 
who even bother to visit my dead blog =D
and baby lions are so goddamn adorable.
i miss breathing smoke out of my mouth =(

2008-11-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

you lose

korea tomoro. scaryyy.
i seriously hope i don't freeze to death there or something.
that would be a sad way to die =(
and mdm riza is so weird. therefore, i declare her one of the nicest teachers in ngee ann =D
oh yeah, EAP was full of shit.
somehow, i don't think its useful. maybe to R1's only.
open house was boring. parents are so irritating, i wanted to slap some of them.
i got a yellow balloon =D but i was to lazy to bring it home so i tied it to a bus stop.
and i had this weird dream last night. ok not last night actually.
aniwae, i was on a boat with two people, i can't remember who =(
oh so we were fishing?
then my blue nokia phone dropped into the sea. the whole thing just went down.
i remember screaming and diving into the sea to save it.
then i think i drowned even though the two people on the boat tried to save me.
it was so real, i swear =(
im sorry if this is boring but seriously, i hav nothing else to blog about.
love lockdown video is so freaky. kanye west is so racist.
paper planes is so funny.
and weird.
and catchy at the same time.
the chorus is so cool =D
okay pray that i survive the korea trip =D
and im sincerely sorry that this post sucks =(

2008-11-08T00:39:00.003+08:00

Must mistake me, you're a sucker

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO ANGELA AND HIDAYAT! =D
this is a totally SHORT and random post.
oh the english teacher says we're one of the best classes she's ever taught.
so cooool. but i pity her larh. ok not really.
and i don't like ms lee. bias crap. invite people like them only. i'm gonna hire banglahs to rape her
i swear i'm gonna die in amaths.
so many confusing terms. i think i'm gonna need a tutor.
and i'm lagging in chem. missed dunno how many lessons already. and i lost my QA.
oh yeah, malay o level was okay. more worried about oral, cos i screwed that up.
amira said that the malay o level paper was easy.
wads her problem? i dunno why she doesn't want to take hml.
yaxun treated me to wasabi. it tasted like burning rubber.
it was freaking spicy.
not those nice nice spicy.
its those revolting disgusting spicy.
and its 7 bucks sia. 7 bucks to eat burning rubber.
oh something hilarious happened yesterday.
there was this girl who called for a job.
this was what happened.
ok the girl i think is ashlee right? or adele or some other random A letter name.
ok i cant put the conversation here due to disgusting content. but it was damn funny larh. LOL
okay fine it went a little something like this.
A (the girl) called for a certain job. then the guy from the job told her to mms her pic to him and she smartly obeyed.

A: did you receive my picture?
guy: yes
A: do i qualify?
guy: yes which is u left or right
A: right side of the picture
guy: tomoro we meet ok
A: are you disappointed in me?
guy: no u r very nice
A: are u sure? so we can meet up tmr?
guy: i like u let me look after u
A:erm okay. but i dont think im that pretty that u would want to look after me.

HAHA. funnie rite. A so pro manzxz. can hook guys with one pic. haha.
one hour hundred bucks sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i am so screwed tomorrow. literally.
and i kinda regret signing up to go korea =(
and im sorry that my post is so short, sherina =(

2008-11-04T21:08:00.004+08:00

but i can't, 'cause we don't

o level is tomoro.
malay o level.
mdm hayati was so smart to not turn up today.
must get at least A, i dun wanna drop =(

okay, update.
this happened last week.
we went to azra's house. i came last cos of hml.
i like her house lorh. her ceiling is highhhh. and i swear her mother is so funnie.
and azra makes the nicest pasta! it cannot even be compared to pizza hut's one, please.
oh then we watched ugly betty and somehow sidetracked to john tucker must die.
and thats what happened that day. her mother is funny.

okay saturday.
halloweeeen.
me and azra met up first. and we got so lost. haha.
so we ended up eating at kfc. then, suddenly, out of nowhere,
this group of scary looking people came marching. so cool, and bloody scary. but still very cool.
but azra and me were too shocked then to take pics. haha.
so we went to escape theme park after azra asked for all the directions. yes, she did all the work.
met sherina later cos she had buffet, and she didnt want to leave her salmon.
so the first thing we went to was THE HAUNTED HOUSE
and while we were queuing got scary people kacau us sia. damn scary larh, like waddehell, u queue then some scary guy pops out of nowhere.
i was bloody scared to go in so sherina switched places with me. she became last. haha.
ok this is what happened as far as i can remember, im not exactly sure.
we went in with the group in front of us, which is a bloody good thing.
i saw pontianaks, i saw dead body, i saw light flashing flashing flashing, so
it was freaking scary larh!!
but the scary part only happens later
so we were screaming, half-running, half-walking.
then
out of nowhere
this bloody freaking tamade ccb guy with this scary mask holding a dagger appeared.
so we got separated from the group in front of us. which is a very very very bad thing.
then i dunno wad else happened after that. i only know we screamed even more.
and we somehow ran back. haha. yeah, we ran back, and i think that dumb ass guy with the mask followed us.
and poor sherina fell down. i dunno when but she did =( poor thing.
okay i cant rmbr anything else.
ohyeah, we got cornered like at least twice by the scary people in masks. TWICE!
then there was this pontianak crawling on the floor with a cane. ok that was funny actually. but everyone was screaming.
then there was this other pontianak. she was like standing so still so i thought she was a dummy. then she suddenly move sia. very nice.
oh i remember got one time, sherina was asking the guy in mask where was the exit. LOL. and she was like are u sure, are u sure. and the guy was like pointing slowly to some dark place. and somehow, we all ended up outside.
so two words. bloodyfreakingtamadeccb!@#$%?! SCARY!!!
then we rode a few more rides before going home.
oh and they took lots of pics too.
too bad we didnt go in the haunted house a second time. haha.
oh sherina's mother and father are nice. and sherina has a really nice car.
and that's what happened.

okay today, i was late.
by a few minutes. and i still had to be punished. waddehell.
and yaxun wants to slim down.
i dunno wads wrong with her, her mother and her mother's friend. all blind people.

o level is tomoro!!
and i dunno how the hell im gonna get money for korea =(

2008-10-27T22:33:00.003+08:00

haha. womanizer mv is so foony. and the guy quite hot leh.
i hav nothing to blog about actually. its all azrawr's fault. she asked me to blog.
oh yeah SHE'S BACK!! =D
i cant find a bloody job sia. waddehell. i dun think i can go korea anymore.
unless money can somehow, er hmmm, fall from the sky? =)
ohohoh, my haha emoticon is damn cute i swear. credits to tsz kin =D
ITS CUTER THEN SHERINA'S HAPPI LORH!!
ok sorry, this is a very random post.
i still hate my results.

faithful doesn't exist in a guy's dictionary

Superstar, 
Where you from? How's it going? 
I know you, 
gotta clue what you're doing 
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here 
But I know what you are, what you are baby 

Look at you, 
Gettin' more than just a re-up 
Baby you, 
Got all the puppets with their strings up 
Fakin' like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em 
I know what you are, what you are baby 

Womanizer, woman-womanizer 
You're a womanizer 
Oh womanizer, 
Oh you're a womanizer baby 
You, you, you are 
You, you, you are 
Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer (Womanizer) 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

You got me goin', 
You're oh so charming 
But I can't do it, 
You womanizer 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

You say I'm crazy, 
I got you crazy 
You're nothing but a womanizer 

Daddy-O, 
You got the swagger of a champion 
Too bad for you, 
You just can't find the right companion 
I guess when you have one too many, 
Makes it hard, it could be easy 
Who you are, that's just who you are baby 

Lollipop, 
Must mistake me, you're a sucker 
To think that I, 
Would be a victim not another 
Say it, play it how you wanna 
But no way, I'm never gonna fall for you, never you baby 

Womanizer, woman-womanizer 
You're a womanizer 
Oh womanizer, 
Oh you're a womanizer baby 
You, you, you are 
You, you, you are 
Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer (Womanizer) 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

You got me goin', 
You're oh so charming 
But I can't do it, 
You womanizer 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

You say I'm crazy, 
I got you crazy 
You're nothing but a womanizer 

Maybe if we both lived in a different world, yeah 
(Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer, womanizer) 
It would be all good, 
And maybe I could be your girl 
But I can't, 'cause we don't, 
You... 

Womanizer, woman-womanizer 
You're a womanizer 
Oh womanizer, 
Oh you're a womanizer baby 
You, you, you are 
You, you, you are 
Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer (Womanizer) 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

You got me goin', 
You're oh so charming 
But I can't do it, 
You womanizer 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

You say I'm crazy, 
I got you crazy 
You're nothing but a womanizer 

Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 
Boy don't try to front, 
I-I know just, just what you are-are-are 

Womanizer, woman-womanizer 
You're a womanizer 
Oh womanizer, 
Oh you're a womanizer baby

2008-10-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

i'm screaming i love you so...
but my thoughts you can't decode

omg yaxun sucks. haha. but not bad at all =D
ok got back results. i must say, i hav succeeded in deproving in ALL my subjects.
and i dun hav a single A damn depressing =(
i failed amaths, from A1 to D7. nice.
my highest grade is B4. and my position is not 30 and below? wad is happening to 3R6?? =(
yeah, so meet the parents. i didnt go. somehow, i listened to azra, amira and sherina and stayed with them. even though my mother wanted me to go and accompany her. so my mother and i was fighting over the phone through messages. in the end she scolded me ****** **** and ****** and confiscated my phone, she was angry cos i didnt accompany her. not cos of my results. haha. funnie rite.
but she scolded me cos of my results todae. cos i got ALL subjects C. excluding hml. and my class position is only 23. so nice. and mrs wong was shocked when she saw my results. so cool. i should hav went sia.

anyway, results aside. im going to korea. mrs wong said i shouldnt go cos of my wonderful results. i shall slap her next tuesday. oh yeah so i need about 500 in total. i think. im not sure, neva rode on a plane before. so i dunno if i should go to korea afterall cos of unforeseen financial problems =(

and i think we're moving. to woodlands. cos there are bungalows there. or yishun. cos got executives.
wads wrong with pasir ris?? i dun want to move =(

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No, not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming "I love you so... But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something, I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

2008-10-24T15:25:00.003+08:00

Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

Hi I am blogging for Hanis=D
I dont know how she usually type and blog, so I shall try to imitate her as much as possible.

Exams are over, and Im not retaining! Whee!=D
Now that exams are over, I have a few things to accomplish:

1) Help Azra to fufil her ambition; to be a goldfish breeder which Ashlee thinks that its noble. She hopes for a goldfish with mermaid tail and Zac Efron's blue eyes.
2) Earn two thousand during the holidays so I can treat Ashlee everyday when school reopens
3)Listen attentively during EAP so I can beat Amira and get first
4) Go and sun bathe with Ashlee and Karmaine

I love playing cards with Amy, Ashlee, Amira, Azra, Sherina, Yu Chiu and Yun Ping but I am the best amongst them! Okay, I shall go and meet my good guy friends now. Bye people!=O

2008-10-18T22:36:00.005+08:00

romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel

love story rox shit man. but the mv sux. haha. ok larh, its not as good as the song.
oh exams are seriously over. i hope i dun get retained =(

and i was suppose to watch a show with azra and sherina on monday. i didnt know we were gonna watch house bunny!! aniwae really sorry i didnt turn up =( not entirely my fault that the bus was late rite... =( IM SORRY!! =(
then other stuffs happened after that. tsk, heartbreaking...

tuesdae. watched house bunny with jingwen, lifang and yujun =P
anyway the show is bloody funny lorh. bimbotic yes, but still bloody funnie.
"i gotta meet this freaking bird!"
HAHA anna faris is so funnie.

wednesdae is spore discovery centre rite.
trip was bloody boring. SAFTI trip was interesting. men in green leh =D

thursdae, i swear i wanted to kill our principal. crap i keep forgetting his name. we had talks ALL DAY. he wants to kill the sec 3's or sumting isit. the image talk not bad larh, but the rest was pure boredom.

fridae, more talks. and BIO SPA. BIO BIO BIO. i freaking tot it was CHEM even though azra told me the night before. so i brought the wrong file! =( aniwae my graph was so wrong lorh. and so was my cell sap. but i actually completed it!

oh yeah, new hall is nice and big!
toilets are nice too!! yellow cubicle doors!! =D
wo yao kan connected. mamma mia?
and we're moving house??????
DUN RETAIN ME PLEASE!!! =(

J is a very nice guy. plus he's smart.
and he's NOT singaporean!!
he sounds like a caucasian on the phone =O

i dun want to talk about it...

2008-10-11T11:25:00.003+08:00

this love is difficult but it's real

EXAMS ARE (nearly) OVER!!
yayness. but i think im gonna fail all the subjects =(
just pray that i dun get retain.
ikea and courts with azra, amira and sherina.
i hate rich people.
and ashlee's gonna pierce her ear again.
but its so weird to have two cartilages lorh.
even if i talk, you won't be listening right. i'd rather stay mute.

hmmm to believe or not to believe...

2008-10-09T19:02:00.002+08:00

We were both young when I first saw you 
I close my eyes and the flashback starts 
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air 
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns 
See you make your way through the crowd 
And say hello, little did I know



That you were Romeo 
You were throwing pebbles 
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet 
And I was crying on the staircase 
Begging you please don't go



And I said 
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone 
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run 
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess 
It's a love story, baby, just say yes



So I sneak out to the garden to see you 
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew 
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while



Oh, oh, oh



'Cause you were Romeo, 
I was a scarlet letter 
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet 
But you were everything to me 
I was begging you please don't go



And I said 
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone 
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run 
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess 
It's a love story, baby, just say yes



Romeo, save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel 
This love is difficult, but it's real 
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess 
It's a love story, baby, just say yes



Oh oh



I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around 
My faith in you was fading 
When I met you on the outskirts of town



And I said 
Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone 
I keep waiting for you but you never come 
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think 
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring 
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

hmmmm...

when nostalgic moments hit me

2008-10-03T22:03:00.002+08:00

life is very unfair.
why must hari raya and exams be on the same month?
and im not suppose to be blogging.
but im bored anyway.
oh i met A today. hmmmm...
studied with azrawr and sherina at the marine parade library yesterday.
i swear, i had no idea it was so BIG.
and i got lost =(
its third level lorh, wad second level.
ok emaths was a killer. damn difficult sia. i skipped two questions plus i wrote a whole lot of crap. so i think im gonna fail it.
OH THIS SONG DAMN NICE. I HEARD ON SHERINA'S E-POD.
THE CHORUS DAMN CATCHY, I SWEAR!!
dunno how long i've been searching for this dumb song larh.
i remember seeing it on tv.
i remembered the gigantic octopus.
hmmm... its damn old. from primary school!!
brings back nice memories =D

We are what we're supposed to be
illusions of your fantasy
All dots and lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do

We are the color symphony
We do the things you wanna see
Frame by frame, to the extreme

Our friends are so unreasonable
They do the unpredictable
All dots and lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do

It's all an orchestra of strings
Doin' unbelievable things
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun

We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper

Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party

We learned to run at speed of light
And to fall down from any height
It's true, but just remember that
What we do is what you just can't do

An opera of craziness
A bunch of dots that's chasing us
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun

We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out onto a piece of paper

Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverland
Welcome to the toon town party

You think we're so mysterious
Don't take us all too serious
Be original, and remember that
What we do is what you just can't do

What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do

We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out onto a piece of paper

There's still more to come
And everyone will be
Welcomed at the
Toon - Toon
Town - Town
Party

2008-09-27T21:01:00.002+08:00

i can try to pretend, i can try to forget
but it's driving me mad, going out of my head

exams are here. and im not studying. pro rite?
i was suppose to blog about something that happened long long ago but i can't remember...
EL was damn difficult. and boring shit. compo is also screwed.
i hate HML compo. the only compo that i know how to write is argumentative and its zhen de boring... paper 2 was difficult oso cos got sec 4 peribahasa and sherina is so smart to think that i dun need to study. she took my paper away...
oh GET WELL FERNANDEZZZZ !!!!!!
i think we're moving back to 1st floor.
aniwae she so poor thing... both her legs leh... =(
hmmm oh yeah oh yeah the train thing...
its all YOUR fault!! =(
wanna noe more, hesitate to ask me.
i shall now pray that i can get all As for EOY.
miracles do ~~not~~ happen.

traumatised...
you can't fall in love with a stranger in one day, its wrong

everything's wrong

2008-09-15T22:19:00.002+08:00

THROUGH IT ALL JUST STAND UP!!
this is probably the best collaboration ever!
SU2C!!!
i can only recognise beyonce, fergie, rihanna, leona lewis and miley cyrus voice. cos all their voices damn unique. but i still dun like miley.
i saw ed there. he looks so unhot.
2 weeks to EOY
i haven studied a shit.
so my As are going down the drain.
hmmm let me try to recall stuff from last week.
i remember going to ECP for something totally unimportant
with the help of AZRA and SHERINA!! i still hav azra's map. hahaha =D
oh and i found dewi's ez-link card.
she says i haven changed much.
that is scary, cos she's changed ALOT.
she's prettierer now. she was quite chio then. she's chioer now =O
oh happie belated mabeline!! =D

AND SHE SAID IT!! OMG I HEARD EVERY SINGLE WORD COMING OUT OF HER MOUTH!!! SHE SAID IT!!!! HOW?? i feel very confused...

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think,
It’s like it can go through anything.
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away, Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into, your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that,

Rihanna/Miley: Things get better, Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up

Sheryl: Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle

Beyonce: You need to know

CHORUS :
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough, But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up

Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be..questioning, wondering what is what
Don’t give up…THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face

Leona: Just because you go through it

Fergie: Don’t mean it got to take control, no

Leona: You ain’t gotta find no hiding place

Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate

Leona: Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you

Keyshia: And sayin’ you can’t go on

Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that

Miley: Things get better
Through whatever

Rihanna: If you fall

Miley: Dust if off, don’t let up

LeAnn: Don’t you know you

Natasha: Can go

LeAnn: Be your own

Natasha: Miracle

Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: CHORUS

Mary: You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind

Ciara: If you fall, dust it off

Mary: You can live your life

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah

Mary: Let your heart be your guide

Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah

Mariah: And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good

Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart

Mary: And it will get better

Mariah: Through whatever

CHORUS

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

lie,lie and lie some more

2008-09-08T21:16:00.005+08:00

I WAS UPDATING YSTDY!!!
but my sis had to use the com for her 'homework' so i lost the f word-ing draft.
HOLIDAES ARE OVER!
OMG WADDEFREAK?
it wasnt productive at all.
i did absolutely nothing.
ok i shld hav blogged on fridae but i lost my mood.
so i shall blog about BYD now =D
i wasnt even suppose to go, but i scared azra, amira and sherina would beat me up when hols end...
aniwae it was ok larh.
TALENT QUEST.
i swear he looks just like him without specs.
i had no idea people don't like him =(
aniwae, didnt go back epps cos apparently, ex students were banned...
they got nothing better to do.
so did other stuffs, er hmmm =)
ok fast forward to todae.
i didnt noe u would feel nothing if a leech is actually sucking ur blood.
dats scary.
go amira's blog for ms farhana's damn funnie story. HAHA.
oh ORAL todae.
damn lucky dat ms lorraine lee didnt invigilate us.
if she did, i think not many will pass.
mama wong invigilated us =D
ok i screwed reading cos the freaking passage was full of crap.
picture was about sum lioness and some other ppl.
i said a whole lot of crap so she couldnt prompt me. wahahaha.
and i used singlish too.
and i seriously forgot about the conversation part. so i screwed dat one too.
at least its over. damn relieved =D
AVRIL LAVIGNE IS GONE!!!!
WHY WHY WHY!! freak shit, this is the second time i missed her concert.
life is unfair.
I HAD THE FREAKING TICKET.
but my mum was pissed cos i need 100 DOLLARS to fix my broken phone ='(
oh GET WELL SOON ASHLEE!!
SHE HAS A SEXAYE VOICE NOW =O
OHOHOH THIS SONG IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!
i got addicted to it when i listened to it for the first time.
SO LISTEN TO IT AND GET ADDICTED TO IT TOO =D
THE CHORUS ROX!
but the mv not very nice. HAHA

I go
Ooh
Ooh
You go
Ah
Ah
La la la la
Ah la la la

I can la la la la la la
I wanna
Wanna
Wanna get
Get
Get what I want
Don't stop

Gimme
Gimme
Gimme what'cha got
Got 'cause I can't wait
Wait
Wait
Any more
More
More
More

Don't even talk about the consequence
'Cause right now your the only thing that's making any sense to me
And I don't give a damn what they say or what they think
Think 'cause your the only one who's on my mind
I'll never ever let you leave me
I'll try to stop time forever
Never want to hear you say goodbye
Goodbye
Bye

I feel so untouched and I want you so much that I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
Uh
And I need you so much

See you
Breathe you
I want to be you
Ah la la la
Ah la la la

You can take
Take
Take
Take
Take time
Time to live
Live the way you gotta
Gotta live your life

Give me
Give me
Give me all of you
You
Don't be scared of seeing through the loneliness
I want it more
More
More

Don't even think about what's right or wrong
Or wrong
Or right
'Cause in the end it's only you and me
And no one else is gonna be around to answer all the questions left behind
And you and I are meant to be
So even if the world falls down today you still got me to hold you up
Up
And I won't ever let you down
Down

I feel so untouched and I want you so much that I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
Uh
Untouched
Uh
Untouched

Untouched
Uh
Ah la la la
Ah la la la

Untouched
Uh
Ah la la la
Ah la la la

I feel so untouched and I want you so much that I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Going crazy from the moment I met you

I feel so untouched and I want you so much that I just can't resist you
It's not enough to say that I miss you
I feel so untouched right now
Need you so much somehow
I can't forget you
Going crazy from the moment I met you

Untouched
Uh
Untouched
Untouched
Uh

JOE JONAS IS GAY!!!! Mrs Mchoffron =)

2008-08-19T19:02:00.002+08:00

why isnt miss nurul coming to classes???? i miss her alot =(
omg i actually passed CHEMISTRY AND EMATHS! crazy. but all also borderline so not very good actually. i cant bear to see my amaths and bio results. pray i at least pass all...

Looking at you now I can tell
That you and your new relationship ain't going well
There's no reason your name should come up on my cell
Unless you're unhappy
But that shouldn't be the case because you said
Said he was the one
Baby yes you said, said you were in love
Cos when you left me
You said you wouldn't be coming back
Remember that?
But I never agreed

I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were gon' be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me
Or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past
It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time your up and calling for me late at night
Well now that you ain't got me
Tell me where you gon' be
Cos I can't take you back
No my heart won't let me

Girl you know he can't touch like I do
I don't see you trippin' or flippin' over his moves
Don't take a genius to see he ain't that dude
But you let him back
You don't know what you was on

When you said
Said he was the one
Baby yes you said, said you were in love
Cos when you left me
You said that you wouldn't be coming back
Remember that?
But I never agreed

I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were gon' be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me
Or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past
It was you that left me

I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time your up and calling for me late at night
Well now that you ain't got me
Tell me where you gon' be
Cos I can't take you back
No my heart won't let me

And there are hard times it seems
But you ain't getting no sympathy
Not baby not from me
Cos I told you, you should never leave
See you chose this road
So you gotta go it alone
Remember I told you so

I hate to say but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were gon' be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me
Or else you wouldn't be
Running back to the past
It was you that left me

I hate to say but you know I'm right
Every time your up and calling for me late at night
Well now that you ain't got me
Tell me where you gon' be
Cos I can't take you back
No my heart won't let me

Oooh

Oh, Oh, Oh

2008-08-16T22:50:00.003+08:00

omg i screwed ALL common tests! i scared get back results sia.
ok nothing else happened.
HAPPIE BDAE EUGENE =)
ok this song is damn funnie. gross and true but funnie. haha.

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention.
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what I'm used to
Just want to try you on
I'm curious, for you,
Caught my attention

I kissed a girl
And I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl
Just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl
And I liked it
(I liked it)

No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter
You're my experimental game
Just human nature
It's not what good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

I kissed a girl
And I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl
Just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl
And I liked it
(I liked it)

Us girls we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist, so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain't no big deal it's innocent

I kissed a girl
And I liked it
The taste of her cherry chapstick
I kissed a girl
Just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl
And I liked it
(I liked it)

2008-08-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

you know you can
if you get the chance
in your face and the door keeps slamming

LJ sucks.
i failed my e maths test!!
just passed a maths and bio. omg, i feel very dumb.
ok i duno wad else to blog about.
ohohoh i think his friend is much more shuai now. but abit short arh.
oh and i did a test. cos i was bored and random.

You are quiet, reserved, but very creative.
A lot of people don't seem to understand you because you have your own 'beat'.
You enjoy both the light and dark side of life, and sometimes this comes off as a little creepy.
You are sometimes too quiet, you need to learn to speak up!!!
You are very intreperative and creative in your workplace/activities and tend to be a good follower.
You often dislike confrontation and would rather just forget problems, as opposed to fighting or talking about them.
You love to read and write, and love to look very 'Posh'.
Although you are often misunderstood, you are undoubtably cool.

haha so crap but so true. almost all aniwae.

do i smell jealousy?

2008-07-13T18:24:00.003+08:00

'cause I'm in love with you

~~YUJUN HACKED INTO MY ACCOUNT AND UPDATED MY BLOG~~
just joking. i let her update, but she sucks larh. update so short.
the new e-mail thing is TRUE arh so do add me =)
ok lets blog properly now.
yesterdae the yesterdae had the money sense thing rite. i didnt noe overseas education was DAT expensive sia. and ashlee wants to study in italy... but italy no good university lorh. ashlee sae america is not a good choice cos ppl can just 'eh, kan shen me kan' bang! u die without a reason. but america sounds fun arh. nvm, me and ashlee guarentee plus chop studying overseas when we older =) yay!
oh and i didnt noe had cca dat dae. thaha is a nice and cute guy =) too bad hes only sec 1 =(
and and and nothing else happened =)
oh yarh, i saw this two couples in the park. one MALAY couple and one CHINESE couple. damn funnie the chinese girl kip staring at the malay girl... haha

for a moment, i actually thought you cared

2008-07-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you

Wahahaha!!! My new email is hanis_guailan@hotmail.com.
Add me arh.

I am a BM =(

2008-07-07T19:46:00.002+08:00

bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

wow dis song is actually addictive!
and i got nothing to blog about =(
oh i met her after i-duno-how-many months!
shes more chioer now. but her boyfren sucks. haha.
and she thinks dat ***** is ****
dats wad happens when u dun see me for a long time.
and im broke. in desparate need of money.
i want december to come fast!
GOOD LUCK TO PPL TAKING CHINESE O LVL ORAL LATER DIS WEEK! dun screw up like me =(

i didnt change!!! u did...

2008-07-03T13:09:00.002+08:00

baby you're so new age,
you like my new craze
let's get together maybe we can start a new phase

no school todae! =(
cos of e-learning.
malay o level yesterday was f***ed up.
oh i did the chinese o lvl oral oso.
its about inflation of prices or sumting.
ok aniwae,
reading- ok larh. i read one wrong word.
conversation- i rly screwed it. then the two teachers look at me like they gonna eat me or sumting. pressurising larh. sumore i only replied a few lines for each question. so im dead.
no more A* =( my sis will laugh at me.
oh my sis fractured her ankle. so she hav to use crutches. crutches are fun =)
hope darren gets well soon.
haha my post rox man =)
and lifang sucks =)
and i screwed poa test.
miss nurul is pakistan? wow...

U ARE CLOSER TO HER!!!!

2008-06-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

and I just can’t pull myself away
under a spell i can't break
I just can't stop
I just can't stop
I just can't stop
I just can't stop

ok sorry for late update.
anyway nothing much happened larh.
oh yeah school reopened.
new teachers.
EL/ELIT - sum shit crap teacher. she TRIES to speak with an accent. wad she tink she ang moh isit. waddecrap. she sucks shit. and she treats us like retards. but the worst thing is dat shes staying with us till sec 4. OMG. bloody crap. i hate EL and ELIT lessons now.
PB - sum malay teacher. she treats us like retards too. but her way of teaching not bad larh. but im missing miss kum =( bloody R5 took her away =(
yay i duno wad else to update.
oh SORRY YUJUN!
wo zhen de neva kan ni! SORRY =(
tapestry todae. i wanted to go!!!! but no money =(
ok sorry my mind is blank now... haha =)
oh yeah fuck my mother and brother

if i die, would you cry for me?

2008-06-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

you said you would never leave me
i believe you
i believe

damn lazy to update sia. aniwae NO ONE reads my blog =)
hmmm oh yarh malay overseas camp.
i dun rmbr much so dun blame me.

day1
we went there. by bus. i LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOONG bus journeys!!!! haha
erm we got welcumed by these cute ppl from the kampung. damn cute. and awkward.
then blablabla talk alot of crap. there was odd number of girls, so had to be grouped weirdly. Azra, Maisarah and me were together =)
then we got adopted by this mama hu is short tempered as warned by the kampung ppl.
we got a cute sister. annoying but cute. and yarh, too bad no cute guys our age lives there =(
the house was NICER then expected, they got cable!! waddehell even i dun hav larh =(
then we just walked around. and joined the other girls who were searching for Qamarina. QAMARINA. the most coolest malay name dat starts with the letter Q!!! haha.
haha. so we ended up at dis guys house. he acted retarded at first but he was actually nice larh. hes freaking mixed! i tink eurasian plus malay. damn cool bodo. caucasians speaking malay is freaking cool.
then we went to his hse to weave stuff later at nite. damn pain.
then we went back hme to sleep. i ended up sleeping on the floor one. which isnt so bad actually.

day2
yes azra bathes slower then me! wahahahah.
we ended up water trekking EARLY IN THE MORNING. ok larh not so early 8+
the water was DAMNFREAKINGMOTHEREFFING ICY COLD! but quite fun larh. i guess. got waterfall. only the guys went, girls went later i tink. i didnt go. lazy =)
erm then we had to learn this music thingy. which was quite nice and less scary if ur not solo. then we learnt a dance? which was damn... erm not suitable for guys at all. then blablabla. we had to wear baju kurung dat nite. guys are all crapshits. most DIDNT WEAR. waddehell. ALL the girls wore larh.
then performance!
Azra, Sherina and me almost had to dance dat so-not-suitable-for-guys dance. but we sat like way far away. so they neva see us. wahahah. the other 10 girls went up.
then we seriously had to do dat music thingy. i tot they were joking sia =P Azra panicked like mad cos she totally forgot. but in the end we were way better then greenview lorh.
oh dis guy danced erm sum crazy hip hop thingy which evrybody liked. haha damn funnie. then blablabla. oh yeah farris and sum girl frm greenview became the couple. damn cute. they make funny poems too. ok then blablabla. went back hme to sleep. i slept up dis time =)

day3
we were leaving todae???? i didnt noe seh. yeah so we were leaving todae.
we salamed alot of ppl and went hme. canot rmbr exactly wad happened.
and sadly didnt get to ride on motorbike =(
so we took damn long bus ride to erm sum i duno whr place. cos the goddamitbloodystupidshit bus broke down cos of the air con.so we had to wait TWO HOURS PLUS for another bus. then oh yeah sumting WEEEEIRD happened. thank god ppl forget stuff easily.
checked in hotel and blablabla. almost listened to a ghost story. waddeheck! like 12+ alr hu the hell dare listen??? so i ended up sleeping with Azra and Sherina. they are DAMN FUNNIE ppl btw!!!!! hahahahaha seriously.

day4
we woke up late for the breakfast buffet crap. i hav no idea wads buffet.
oh and we watched dat pontianak video. damn scary bodo. thank god it was morning!
then we took loooooooooong bus ride back to singapore. after going to alot of crap places.
then home =)
not rly. cos had media camp the very next dae. wow so pro.
so slept at my nice warm bed... and woke up damn early the next dae.
media camp was ok i guess. dun wan to sae much. seriously dun wan. sorry. but it was fun!!!! overall. as in crappy fun =)
OHOHOH I MANAGED TO WATCH THE B***** M*** EPISODE.
not as scary as expected =(
too bad larh. ok dis is prob my longest post ever =) yay!
ok im damn sleepy now. bloody holidae homework!!!!!

inches away from u

holy shit i miss him. alot

2008-06-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

and the 7th thing I hate/like the most that you do
you make me love you

i shall update since i cant update on saturdae. wahahaha.
ok nothing to update actually. hah i noe, bloody mary!
incredible tales new season quite nice arh. so not PG...
first episode is about this girl hu got missing cos of dis hen ke ai cat.
then she sumhow died. and the despaired father go bomoh to seek for help.
so the dead daughter came back to life thanks to the death of another girl! omg inhuman.
then the 'dead' daughter turned into an evil ~~bitch~~ devil and tried to kill the elder sis.
the mother found out about it and ordered the father to kill the devil.
but sumhow the father died isit? then the police came and tot the mother was evil for trying to kill the devil. so in the end the devil is still alive. the mother went IMH. haha, no i just added dat.
the episode cuming up is about b***** m***
sae b***** m*** three times in front of a mirror at midnite... then tell me wad happen kay? =)
advertisement show ppl who tried it, their eyes kena gouged out. so PG arh...
yes i updated crap! wahahahah
two camps one after another seh. damn pro rite.
1st camp starts tomoro. 2nd camp starts straightaway after the first one.
oh my leg is even worse now. cos i fell just now, and i felt it cracked. so now i canot walk properly. tamadeccbknn!!
OH MY BRO DID SUMTING TO HIS HAIR.
its brownish yellowish shittish colour. i tink hes trying to attract girls... haha damn funnie.

~~no one shall miss me =(~~

2008-06-06T22:36:00.002+08:00

forever on the dance floor

yay i can update!! wahahaha.
chalet was nice. and boring. but at least we got bond right??
didnt overnite. cos ya thesonotangelic xun canot overnite.
and ECP sucks shit larh. why isit so big?? so damn far frm places.
and i dun like wei cong. he skates like a freaking pro!
i tried to skate and i freaking sprained my knee.
better then SUMONE hu didnt even try to skate but cried LOL!
the guy at the skate shop sux.
oh i was the only malay hu attended the chalet leh. yeah im so pro
hmmm oh yaxun forced me to wear fbt. so im officially sinful. im going to hell when i die.
why girls like to wear arh? its damn airy and cold and SHORT =(
oh and i had no idea brent, wei cong and shane knows my name... hmmm
omg sorry i duno wad else to update. yeah my brain memory sux =)

I UPDATE FOR WANJING!!!! XD

2008-05-29T21:33:00.006+08:00

OMGOMGOMG i think this song nicer then rihanna's one =)
i can't freaking find it on imeem. so hear it on youtube. guarentee u will love it.
my legs no feeling sia.

dun depress. u shld hav dumped him first. aniwae u still hav another one, who RLY seems to care about u way more then dat bastard plus son of a bitch plus babi. i wuld freaking curse him if i were u. and sorry, i damn regret sending him those msgs. shld be more vulgar. oh and a friend once told me -
no guy is ever worth ur tears =)

the flowers are faded now, along with your letters
they will never see the light of day, cause I'll never take them out
there's no turning back, it's for the better
baby I deserve more then empty words and promises
i believed every thing you said, and I gave you the best I had

so take a bow, 'cause you've taken everything else
you played the part, and like a star you played it so well
take a bow, 'cause this scene is coming to an end
i gave you love, all you gave me was pretense, so now take a bow

the future's about to change, before you know it,
the curtain closes, take a look around,
there's no one in the crowd, I'm throwing away the pain,
and you should know that your performance made me strong enough

so take a bow, 'cause you've taken everything else
you played the part, and like a star you played it so well
take a bow, 'cause this scene is coming to an end
i gave you love, all you gave me was pretense, so now take a bow

well it must have been slight of hand, 'cause I still can't understand
why I could never see, just what a fool believes
but the lies they start to show, tell me how does it feel to know, right now
that I wont be around, so baby before where ever you are

take a bow, 'cause you've taken everything else
you played the part, and like a star you played it so well
take a bow, 'cause this scene is coming to an end
i gave you love, all you gave me was pretense, so now take a bow
take a bow

2008-05-26T14:08:00.003+08:00

you try to gain my trust
talking is not enough
actions speak louder than words
you gotta show me something
my heart is missing some pieces
i need this puzzle put together again

yay im feeling better =)
my results suck worse then shit.
EL - 59.5 C5
HML - 60.5 B4
AM - 61.6 B4
EM - 48.1 D7
PB - 60.4 B4
PC - 61.6 B4
Combined Humans - 53 C6
POA - 76.1 A1
my percentage went up =)
my position went down 17/42 =( wahaha i took JingWen's position.
omg i hope his position drop too.
im bottom half of the school 180+/275
and my L1R5 and L1R4 is the same as Jerlyn!! HAHA
L1R5 - 23
L1R4 - 17
so crap. and i dun hav remedial. even more crap.
i want to go remedial!
chatted alot with her nowadays =) she is so suck shit!
oh i read sumone's blog. haha. totally made me smile =)
i finally link ppl!! links are NOT random btw =)

hanis, ur so useless. u should just go and jump off a building

2008-05-16T22:24:00.003+08:00

I know you don’t think that I am trying

haiz... results are damn depressing. i deproved in all subjects. ahhh ~~FUCK~~ so dumb.
EL - 23/50
22/30
20/30
HML - oh freak i cant rmbr. overall is 60 i tink
PC - 65/100
PB - 54/100
POA - 72/100
EM - 47/100
AM - 50/100
SS - 22/50
ELIT - 31/50

one A? its not even A1 larh. amaths marks are most dissapointing =(
and please tell me he's NOT topping our class!!!!

2008-05-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT?

wheee exams over alr! but im still stressed.
i scared i fail alot of subjects. then nid to drop to combined science. omg my mother wuld kill me.
PB paper was a killer oso. its worse then AM. but i tink MCQ was ok since alot was from TYS, haha.
section B and C can jump off building alr. so dun tok about it.
after last paper, yatheveryevilxun and me forced tsz kin to go tm with us. haha. so bad.
yaxun is siao plus shen jing bing plus crazy plus gila. i tink shes damn desparate to get a job =)
she asked damn alot of shops lorh. haha. if all got call, we both will die.
but actually quite fun go job hunting with her. cos she ask all XD
but i tink karmaine will kill her.

don't think negatively, nothing bad will happen =)

2008-05-02T23:46:00.002+08:00

love at first sight
never thought it could happen to me
but you made me believe
kidnap my heart
take me with you
kidnap my heart
make my dreams come true
take me away cause falling in love
ain't very far
not far from the start
kidnap my heart

omg eric dill is damn shuai in this movie!!!
elective lit sux. WHY DID WE TAKE YAXUN?? but actually quite good larh, since u cant study for it. but ppl write answer damn long, like writing social studies answer.
I CANT BALANCE POA. so i shall not talk about it.
oh freak, karmaine dont like black music =(
see i updated =)

#5 #5 #5 #5 #5

2008-04-30T20:37:00.002+08:00

'cause you know
i'd walk
a thousand miles
if I could
just see you
tonight

MYE has been crazy.
SS was okay larh. i finished all the questions =) started on structured essay then chiong-ed question number one. omgomgomg please let me pass SS this time!
oh then EM. ok i wrote crap for all the questions. cos i didnt even study.
PC was a killer. dunno which idiot sae its easy.
AM was the worst of the worst. and its the longest paper. now i noe why the duration is so long. aniwae i skipped TWO questions. so minus 8 marks. then i wrote crap for the rest of the questions, so minus a hundred more marks. so im failing.
ok i shall study for wadeva is left =)
my brother sucks. can sumone please beat him up or sumting?

omgomgomg i saw him again!
was she talking about me?

2008-04-25T21:25:00.003+08:00

thought i couldn't live without you
its gonna hurt when it heals to
it'll all get better in time
even though i really love you
i'm gonna smile cause i deserve to
it'll all get better in time
since there's no more you and me
its time i let you go so i can be free
and live my life how it should be
no matter how hard it is i'll be fine without you
yes i will

omg MYE start alr! omg crap suck shit drink urine
ok actually only did two papers. EL and HML
english was fine. i wrote crap. i see jolene beside me write long long for alot of questions. ALL questions i write one line answer. almost all larh. and my summary is probably the shortest =) alot ppl write 149,150,150+ i wrote 108? hmmm....
english compo and letter was ok also. i guess. erm i forgot wad i wrote.
higher malay was terrible. i duno two of the peribahasa? freaking crap.
plus letter and compo both are screwed. compo i wrote too short alr. canot blame me, topic was damn boring. letter was fine =)
oh i haven study for PC,PB,EM... aiya mostly the rest of the subjects.
i dun plan to study for EM cos i dun even understand it in the first place.
PC PB if dun study is equal to commiting suicide. no actually worse. i dun wanna drop to combined science. physics sounds boring =P
and how to study for elit? canot rite? yay!
AM is suck shit. waddehell. they testing the polynomial crap. I DUN FREAKING GET IT. ok not rly. i understand a little bit =)
ohyarh POA. i dun get dis either. JingWen be my tutor =) haha.
ohoh MrLim is actually a nice guy. and he's married leh. wow. but he teaches way too fast. like bullet train.
ok i shall be good girl and go study. after playing com games. if too stressed canot perform well rite? haha
OH HAPPIE BIRTHDAY JINGWEN!! =) sorry dat dis came terribly late
oh HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO UR DEAREST OSO! wahaha.

just so you know, i think you should just let go

2008-04-19T21:14:00.002+08:00

stuck on my ella, e-ella-vator

dis song is so R21.
omg mid years are coming.
i didnt study at all.
and miss kum is scaring me. she say wad shes gonna talk to our parents and see wether we should continue taking pure sci. i scared i fail the bio test cos i didnt study much for it =(
and i tink miss nurul is nicer then mr leong. ok maybe shes only nicer to R6. wahahaha. R5 dun like her?
ok i scared im gonna fail all my subjects.
i dun understand howthehell to get the freaking formula and all the bonding shit for chem.
bio is effed up alr.
both maths are screwed. ok maybe only EM.
eng and hml okok larh. i dun like english teacher. i keep forgetting her name, and she asshole almost snatch away my phone!
ss and elit oso sure die. cos of obvious reasons.
hmmm i dun rmbr anyting on dis week.
and i hav to freaking ~~steal~~ get a PSP/DSLite by tomoro.
sorry dis post is random crap.

what??? changkat changi?? yishun jc??

2008-04-11T21:33:00.004+08:00

i've got to let you know i feel so weak without your touch
i never thought that i could ever love a man so much
i've gotta let you know i think that we are destiny
for you I'd cross the world for you
i'd do anything

omg imeem sucks like kanasai.
ok i shall blog about dis week =)
i dun rmbr much, my brain cells dying.
oh yarh 2.4km i cheated and finally got a freaking C!!!
tests dis week. erm AM and PB only isit? i only rmbr dis two.
AM-only 9 passes in the class and 3 distinctions. waddehell?? omg i dun tink i can pass alr.
PB-hmmm i tink the paper tamadeeffingccb difficult. so guarentee no pass. damn larh, my PC alr so crap. like waddehell acids bases and chemical formulas. OMGOMGOMG.
oh miss nurul came, mr leong left.
his last day he went over to R5 first rite. then we all tot he guai lan. which is the truth.
then he came to our class and gave out test papers. for once we behaved. not dat we neva behaved before. R6 not dat bad ok. oh i tink i did ok for the test. wahahah.
then he look like he was gonna break down.~~not dat i care~~ aniwae he didnt larh. and he took pic with us.
now ms nurul take over. i tink shes bias. i tink she like R5 more. waddehell. then still ask me 'am i too lenient to ur class?' haha ~~but at least shes malay~~ =P
oh yarh the list thing. neva involve me, involve ALOT of R6 and sum other ppl, damn cool and scary at the same time. haha.
oh and the new EL teacher sux like shit. i dun even noe her name. haha. she tear my vocab book answer key until like wad sia. im gonna sue her.
haven got back SS yet. but i tink im failing it aniwae.
ELIT and EL sucks without miss lim =(
i wanna watch untraceable!!! it looks alot like saw =P
oh THANKS ALOT FK!!! =)
THANK YOU VERY MUCH LIFANG!! XP

why now? after all these years why now???

2008-04-05T21:32:00.003+08:00

girl you need to tell him…
that I’m leavin’ never to come back again
you found somebody who does it better than he can
no more making you cry, no more them gray skies
girl we're flyin on the G5 G5

~~Jesse McCartney is damn cute!!!~~
this weird song is dedicated to YOU!!! you can do it!! =)
ok i can finally use the com. bleah after duno how long.
tests are over!! only three. i didnt study much for any of them.
POA- wahahah i balanced one!! duration too short lorh
PC- i didnt study. and i minus 2 marks cos i didnt draw the circle thing. ahh 2 marks leh!
SS- forget about dis. i guarentee fail AGAIN =(
oh have el letter test. the whole class cheated the format! ok at least me and sum others did.
and i saw him on fridae... he change alot sia!
hmmm i dun rmbr much dis wk.
HAPPIE BELATED BDAE HANIS!! =)
HAPPIE BELATED BDAE FARRIS!!

wad.de.hell???
wad u expect me to sae? 'oh thats the guy i used to like too"

2008-03-28T20:17:00.003+08:00

when you look me in the eyes,
and tell me that you love me,
everything's alright,
when you're right here by my side

im finally updating. wahahaha.
hmmm, i dun rmbr much dis week.

so i shall sum everything up.

MISS LIM!!! Y MUST U GO??? IM GONNA FREAKING FAIL ENGLISH AND LIT WITHOUT YOU!!!!!!

MRS WEE!!! Y MUST U GO TOO??? COME BACK QUICK!! MR LIM SUX AT AM!! I SHALL SUCK AT AM TOO! =(

MR LEONG!! erm thanks for teaching us =)

hmmm i tink the guy hu taught us CCM was shuai lorh. he looks gay? ok maybe ABIT gay, but ok wad.

ok SPORTS DAE todae!!

i WASNT SUPPOSE TO GO! but thanks to her i went.

see larh. im now ~~blackerer~~ darker alr. dumb shit.

aniwae i tink CCH, DHS, AND TMS are way better then us dis yr.

but got dis guy frm lower sec run damn fast!! haha.

oh there was dis part, he was running, then he tripped COS OF A SONOFAB****. then NASians suddenly stood up to see. YES EVERY SINGLE NASIAN. funnie i tell u. in the end, he managed to beat that SONOFAB****. whoo hoo.

and we didnt win cheering competiton. so sad sia.

but its ok. we are gonna win ALL EVENTS NEXT YR!! JIAYOU!! =)

oh CCH performance. its porn i tell u. all the guys were glued to the girls dancing to wall to wall. okok, its actually nice. but its so... haha nvm.

after dat went blablabla and home,

POA on tuesday.

GET WELL SOON!!!!!! =)

~~i miss you so much, you have no idea~~

2008-03-21T15:34:00.003+08:00

well you drive me crazy half the time
the other half, i'm only trying to let you know
that what i feel is true
and i'm only me when i'm with you

founders day was boring shit.
waste time go school for a few performances only. dumb. at least no lessons horh.
well went sumwhr after wadeva.
then went back sch for cca. yarh my cca isnt dead yet. so sad.
nvm larh juniors are DAMN enthu.
went all the way to changi. wahlao.
damn funnie see juniors kayak. quite slow. no offence to them. haha.
juniors are damn enthu! theres this girl who calls me big sister. so cute rite? =) haha.
ok done. im not using my com.
and why do u still rmbr?????

why'd you hav to go??? even though its only been a few months, ur probably the best EVER =)
do i regret coming to ngee ann?

2008-03-14T11:23:00.003+08:00

is it you? is it you?
maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
could you be the one for me?
could you be the one I need?

whoo i can finally use the com!!
oh and i haven touched on the hw yet. i still got bio and hml to do. yarh i dun like bio project oso!! =(
and i flunked the EM heymath test 6/15
and im not in EM supplementary????? waddehell i tink they missed my name
oh monday ma lai wen enrichment was dumb. waste time larh. and he take malay O LEVEL dis year meh??? wah didnt noe =P
then AM lesson on wed was so peaceful larh. only 4 ppl.
then went sumwhr to do sumthing.
but should have done it like on tuesday lorh u dumb. haha.
~~i dun like my new shoes! the stripes are RED!~~
saturday =)

is she talking about me?

2008-03-08T21:28:00.004+08:00

i'm hearing what you say
but i just cant make a sound

ok ALOT of things has been happening this past few days.
dun worry i wun blog all down.
got back tests. some SUCKED LIKE OMG. others VERY SATISFYING. to me aniwae. haha.
aniwae overall average is like arnd 65? omg dat sux ok.
i dun dare show miss cp my report book alr. she got like FIVE EFFING A1!!!! like waddehell??
oh amira, u suck too!! she is DEFINITELY TOP THREE in the class!! DUMB!!
EL - B4 highest was AMIRA!! 69? i tink.
HML - B3 highest was 67. i got 65 =) omg i scared i cant get A for malay O levels dis year!!
AM - A1 one word for dis - LOL dis is the only subject im proud of =) dun worry. i'll start failing soon. this is just luck.
EM - C6 OMG I PASSED EMATHS??? i failed both tests and i JUST PASSED EMATHS. haha yes, i got a beautiful 50 =)
BIO - A2 yarh i see dis i oso surprised. my bio sux larh. should be like C5.
CHEM - B4 yes my chem sux!!
COMBINED HUMANS - C5 i dunno how the hell i passed dis oso. i failed SS and my ELIT is like not dat good. but not dat bad compared to highest actually.
POA - A1 i cant say anything for dis. i think almost everyone i noe got A?
so my L1R5 according to lifang, is 16.
dats not good. dat sucks. i NEED a single digit.
i wanna go to a good jc. im jealous of my sis larh.
she go MJC, the shirt damn nice colour larh!! orangey-yellow!! omg she sucks.
oh and i saw my AM teacher todae =)
ok dats it. nothings gonna happen during the hols. except for me going back to school on monday for ma lai wen O level preparation, and wednesday for AM lesson. my cca is suppose to be dead. it came back to life for no reason, so now theres training after the hols. wad de eff?

fen shou? dun worry. it will NEVER happen =) at least i wun allow it to

2008-03-02T20:24:00.002+08:00

i dunno how im gonna face you in school. yes i still feel guilty obviously. i dunno how im gonna settle the problem. argh, if theres rly no other way, im gonna go meet him personally and explain it to him. you’re obviously still angry at me and dun worry, its understandable. haiz... can someone kill me already.

thanks alot =) u actually cheered me up! and yeah sumhow, i have a feeling ur right... wadeva im still in the wrong =( aniwae thanks alot for everything =)

i dunno why words just flow out when i talk to you. maybe its cause youre so easy to talk to. and ur alwaes there when i need sum1. aniwae thanks for always being there =)

2008-03-01T17:34:00.002+08:00

its too late to apologise, its too late...

im sorry that I did what I did. I had no efffing idea that he would get angry over two messages seriously. I didnt noe he was dis sensitive okay. and to be honest, dat was the first time I see you really cry over him =( now I really regret that I sent him those messages. i didn’t noe it would end up to this okay. and im freaking sorry. but I guess nothing I sae right now can make things right. oh and very weird, i cried last night too. no idea why. its been a long time since i cried for someone. i guess I should just admit that im jealous that u have such a loving bf. okay im sorry. I duno wad else to sae already. just hope things would get better between you and him. cos if it doesnt, i guess i’ll feel so guilty i can kill myself.

IM SORRY!!!!!!

2008-02-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

The last time I freaked out
I just kept lookin' down
I st-st-stuttered when
You asked me what I'm thinking 'bout

whoo see im home and updating. it means something okay.
aniwae, todae nothing much happened.
didnt get back HML paper. argh i scared i fail cos i wrong format.
got back PB test paper. omg my bio sux larh.
i didnt get back EM paper though. efff mr then.
CCM was slack again. watched licensed to wed. haha.
after that studied with miss cp =)
yes i shld study more often.

its too late actually. i went through that years ago and yeah, i regretted it too.
and i do NOT miss him ok.

2008-02-25T19:02:00.002+08:00

and the hearts all over the world tonight

whoo i survived camp KOREF!! wahahah.
i got blackerer though =( freaking sun, malaysia duno dat theres sumting called rain isit?

DAY ONE
ride the bus to the place. in the bus i dun rly rmbr anything. ppl played card games. i watched and laughed.
when reach there, erm, we pitch tents? then nature walk rite? oh great i dun rmbr. yarh i tink so larh. aniwae grouped wif jovita,amy, blossom and jocelyn =)
oh nature walk was dumb.
oh yarh then water rafting. freaking dumb larh me and yaxun fell =( dun worry dear yaxun I DUN BLAME U
dumb lorraine and mab and brenda didnt fall down =(
then nite walk. haha i tink is nice larh. everybody was like praying hard cos the dumb instructor sae might have extra in attendance when we come back. haha. aniwae i was hoping to see SOMETHING cos we were like in grp rite? i was like last gerl sumore... but brave and macho ah neo was last =) wah... so brave sia. aniwae didnt see anyting lor. bleah. then sleep. freaking diff to sleep larh. i dun tink i slept at all.

DAY TWO
oh mountain climbing! i was looking forward to it cos got dis r4 guy got injured so i wanted to see how steep the mountain was larh.
then climb until midpoint was ok larh.
after dat was insane larh i tell u. if u slip and fall sure die lorh. seriously.
so everybody was holding on to everything tightly.
fernandez damn cool larh. she wasnt exhausted lorh waddehell. weird.
then finally after a 'FEW MINUTES' reached the beautiful summit.
i was F***ING tired by the time i reached lorh. motherefffff.
the view on top is damn nice larh. more nicer then from 17 storey building! obviously.
then going down dat time damn fun! =) everybody was freaking scared they wuld fall. haha.
u noe i so bad, i expected sumone to fall and roll down =(
oh then water obstacles? yarh i tink ok larh.
i only fell at the thing when u have to swing over. almost fell actually.
then poor brent lose his shoe at the balancing thing. haha. funnie larh.
oh then campfire? i tink it sux. fire shld be like bigger can.i was shivering larh.
then slept wif wanjing they all =)
ok i admit, i slept better in the 2nd tent. even though angela didnt. haha.

DAY THREE
oh last day. so sad. seriously.
water captains ball. we beat r5. they sore loser arh. they rematch wif us then still lose. haha.
and thanks to tall tall tall samuel, we lost. freaking crap larh. shane should have came.
then bus home. i dun rmbr anything on the bus. cos i slept all the way =)
aniwae long bus ride larh. zzz...

so basically dats wad happened. i was suppose to update ystdy but no time thanks to... =)
todae arh... back to sch lor. nth alr. hmmm... shit i dun rmrb anything =(
oh yarh i saw hanis todae after erm, i settled the thing.
yeah the smart and fair hanis from CEDAR
i dun tink she saw me. ooo shes still chio. long time since i saw her.

its not worth getting angry over that =(
i pity him, seeing his girlfriend flirt with other guys
i pity her, seeing her boyfriend flirt with other girls
and hes so not shuai up close lor. haha ur taste sux!! =P

2008-02-17T18:23:00.002+08:00

light skin, dark skin, my asian persuasion

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! dis came terribly late =P
THANKS MISS CP!! THANKS CAT!! =)
aniwae valentine's dae quite fun arh =)
common tests and camp cuming up so i wun be online anymore
I MUST BEAT REBECCATOHYAXUN DIS TIME!!!! XD
oh watched movie todae. watched half of it cos i had to go home and complete hml hw CRAP.
oh i did 3 compos in like 3 hours? stupid hml hw. suppose to do like FIVE but i did 3 so dun care she can go and efffff herself alr.
yaxun is going camp =) if she dont go camp... i shall curse her meet him everydae! wahahah.
ok i haven revised chem so i have to study now. u wun catch me online =P

erm i dun tink shes his gf lorh. since hes so vain rite. and aniwae u deserve sum1 better =)

you b****!!! you still like him!!! omg im telling!! XD

2008-02-13T18:52:00.002+08:00

when will i see your face again

this song not nice lorh.wahahah.
eh, i failed chem leh. omg dumb dumb dumb.
wanjing damn pro larh. her phy, poa all nice nice marks. dumb larh
ok dun tok dis.
todae CCM quite nice leh. 1st time ML and HML get to mix.
and our lao shi quite young larh actually. miss jess.
aniwae, we learned a little bit of chinese =)

sec 3 camp.
why ppl dun wan go? it sounds fun leh. and my mother encouraged me to go sumore...
yaxun father dun allow larh, dumb.
jolene cool arh, her parents dun allow, she still go. YAXUN, FOLLOW DIS GOOD EXAMPLE!

~~and i hav to act as a spy tomoro~~
TOMORO 'S VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
AND NABILA'S BDAE!!!! damn cool larh =)

2008-02-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

back to the street, back to the place, back to the room where it all began

P!ATD's new song. not bad horh.
first time i get to use com without anyone else around.
headache is killing me. its been one week alr larh.
homework not done. common tests coming up. teachers of ngee ann are cruel.
HAPPIE CNY!! ok nvm, dis came late.
quite short arh dis post. nth to blog about =)

ONE MORE DAE!! XD
and i made ur night?? haha
ahhh, i hate cedarians